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I love how my dog is curled up sleeping in my lap right now. It is nice to feel somewhat wanted since right now I feel so alone.
It's not that I feel like my boyfriend needs to spend every waking moment with me but it just sucks that like we made 3 different plans to do things today and they all didn't work out. Like first I was invited to go hang out with the boys from diving, which I would feel guilty about posting their names here *cough ned cough*. Of course I would bring Dan along because even though we are all good friends and it wouldn't be weird for me to be with them alone, I have had crushes on like half of them at one point or another and one of them was like in love with me and might possibly still be but i doubt it...anyways plus i just found out that Dan gets a little jealous when I fool around *not sexually* with the one that I'm closest with. Right well that same guy that I'm closest with couldn't fucking turn in one lab so he's failing physics and had to cancel. Which really isn't Dan's fault but we had talked about going to the Redhouse to the last show which is today because my dad is the President of the board there and there are problems so it might be closing which will be sad because it's a really nice cozy stage. Well he mentioned it today but he had completely forgot that we were going to go if the hanging out got canceled. So instead he made plans with Mark to go see a ska show which he was like "you should come with us...we went to one of their concerts in like 8th grade and it is gonna be just like old times" except he didnt know me way back in 8th grade so I would just be like making things weird. But that was too early and Dan has practice that runs half hour after it starts so screw that. Then I called him to see if I should even bother doing my hair for tonight and he said hes just gonna go back to Mark's after practice. Yeah sorry for those people who might read this because it is really long and slightly pointless.
I can't believe I'm sitting in my dark, cold house alone on a Friday night! Gosh not even my parents or sister are home. AG well does it really matter? I'm too fat to go out in public anyways. I completely look like I'm pregnant.I really need to get below 110 again. Ah Ok I'm done for now.
On a different note: my feet are completely numb from being cold and I can't even turn up the heat to above sixty five!
It's not that I feel like my boyfriend needs to spend every waking moment with me but it just sucks that like we made 3 different plans to do things today and they all didn't work out. Like first I was invited to go hang out with the boys from diving, which I would feel guilty about posting their names here *cough ned cough*. Of course I would bring Dan along because even though we are all good friends and it wouldn't be weird for me to be with them alone, I have had crushes on like half of them at one point or another and one of them was like in love with me and might possibly still be but i doubt it...anyways plus i just found out that Dan gets a little jealous when I fool around *not sexually* with the one that I'm closest with. Right well that same guy that I'm closest with couldn't fucking turn in one lab so he's failing physics and had to cancel. Which really isn't Dan's fault but we had talked about going to the Redhouse to the last show which is today because my dad is the President of the board there and there are problems so it might be closing which will be sad because it's a really nice cozy stage. Well he mentioned it today but he had completely forgot that we were going to go if the hanging out got canceled. So instead he made plans with Mark to go see a ska show which he was like "you should come with us...we went to one of their concerts in like 8th grade and it is gonna be just like old times" except he didnt know me way back in 8th grade so I would just be like making things weird. But that was too early and Dan has practice that runs half hour after it starts so screw that. Then I called him to see if I should even bother doing my hair for tonight and he said hes just gonna go back to Mark's after practice. Yeah sorry for those people who might read this because it is really long and slightly pointless.
I can't believe I'm sitting in my dark, cold house alone on a Friday night! Gosh not even my parents or sister are home. AG well does it really matter? I'm too fat to go out in public anyways. I completely look like I'm pregnant.I really need to get below 110 again. Ah Ok I'm done for now.
On a different note: my feet are completely numb from being cold and I can't even turn up the heat to above sixty five!