i know this is random, and no one is going to read this. but its the only place he doesn't know about. and i'm just really excited for this weekend. she is going out of town. no awkwardness hopefully. just kiss me again please.

can't wait to move ( Read more... )

pathetic. literally just got done telling someone i'm over it and i'm not going to start a conversation with him but if he talks to me then cool whatever. but ugh. i saw that he was online on myspace and i wanted to send him a message. i suck. i didn't do it. and i refuse too.
it just sucks that i still want to.
i really thought i was over it.

really stupid vent. i'm so dumbfounded. and it's all going to be ramble jibberish ( Read more... )

my rose colored glasses.

I'm not looking for a well crafted answer that is slightly promising but completely vague. just say it like it is.

I wonder if when people look at me, or at my pictures, what they see. And how accurate it is to who I am or how I'm feeling. Sometimes it feels like no one sees me. Its easy being practically invisible. I noticed how if I'm around people who I don't know very well and I say something kind of silly or bold I can feel my face heat up and I'm sure I'm ( Read more... )

and things constantly chip away at you.

How do you get them to stop and what happens when there is nothing left?

hahaha. what the fuck.

i mean thats fine with me. it takes the pressure off. i guess i just got a little carried away.

i wish i wasn't so ignorant.

i let my mind run free.
now it comes crawling back to stay.
no more adventures it longs to take.
let's stick with reality.