*big hugs* You will get there. You will get to the place you are supposed to be. In time.
There has to be some tiny inkling of hope. There just has to.
Wow, girl, what you wrote; it speaks to me. A lot. I know I have been fortunate to not have lost so many...
your grief and sadness and emptiness are real. but so is the future, and hope.
Hope this doesn't sound too... um... corny? I've written my will over and over in my head; on nights I swore I would not wake from... and have cried at the thought of aging and dying alone. We have to not let that happen... or ... gwwwaar...
why AM I being so optimistic? I feel much compassion for you sweetie.. *hugs*
Optimism is a beautiful thing. "Everything is for the best in the best of worlds..."
Some people look at the twisted and trying events of their life and think of Job. I think of Candide, and then I laugh... :o) I don't think that's normal, but I'll take it.
I should have known not to sit down and write my will after twenty hours of working my ass off, knowing that I'd be up, working my ass off, for 16 more... :o) That was a recipe for emotional disaster. Now that I've slept...totally feelin' all right. :o)
heh. I read the first two lines of that comment... and laughed.. thinking of candide. Too cool.
So yeah, you can laugh at the man... but I think if I had to choose... oh wait no... (I was going to say that if I had to choose between being completely unaware and ignorant of the way things are... being somewhat happy... or being completely and devastaingly away... but being real... ok, well.. I'd probably choose the dramatic...)
*pout* but I am not dramatic. I am realistic. but... but.. but.. I can't stand to see others be like me? if that makes sense? Besides, the fact that two people such as you and myself are still alive this evening.. that has to say something for hope... right?
heh. And I thought I'd never see 20. bah. I haven't been trying hard enough... ;)
*laughs* I'm on a roll this week, I ain't gonna see 21 at this rate. :oP
You a fan of Voltaire, eh? You ever read Sartre's Condemned of Altona? If not, you absolutely must. It has the quote I want on my tombstone in it. There aren't enough existentialist tombstones in this world. *wide grin*
I know too much to want to be ignorant...I just need to learn how to waltz over the potholes in life, and quit stumbling over them. Actually, I guess my in-the-end goal is to fill in as many of the potholes as possible, but right now...eh, I've got a hell of a lot of school left before I can do that.
If you ever hear someone say, "I'm going to a vocational school, it'll be faster." Do them a favor and knock some sense into them. :oP
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There has to be some tiny inkling of hope. There just has to.
Wow, girl, what you wrote; it speaks to me. A lot. I know I have been fortunate to not have lost so many...
your grief and sadness and emptiness are real. but so is the future, and hope.
Hope this doesn't sound too... um... corny? I've written my will over and over in my head; on nights I swore I would not wake from... and have cried at the thought of aging and dying alone. We have to not let that happen... or ... gwwwaar...
why AM I being so optimistic? I feel much compassion for you sweetie..
*hugs*
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"Everything is for the best in the best of worlds..."
Some people look at the twisted and trying events of their life and think of Job. I think of Candide, and then I laugh... :o) I don't think that's normal, but I'll take it.
I should have known not to sit down and write my will after twenty hours of working my ass off, knowing that I'd be up, working my ass off, for 16 more... :o) That was a recipe for emotional disaster.
Now that I've slept...totally feelin' all right. :o)
You're a doll. Thanks. :o) *hug*
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So yeah, you can laugh at the man... but I think if I had to choose... oh wait no... (I was going to say that if I had to choose between being completely unaware and ignorant of the way things are... being somewhat happy... or being completely and devastaingly away... but being real... ok, well.. I'd probably choose the dramatic...)
*pout* but I am not dramatic. I am realistic. but... but.. but.. I can't stand to see others be like me? if that makes sense? Besides, the fact that two people such as you and myself are still alive this evening.. that has to say something for hope... right?
heh. And I thought I'd never see 20. bah. I haven't been trying hard enough... ;)
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You a fan of Voltaire, eh? You ever read Sartre's Condemned of Altona? If not, you absolutely must. It has the quote I want on my tombstone in it. There aren't enough existentialist tombstones in this world. *wide grin*
I know too much to want to be ignorant...I just need to learn how to waltz over the potholes in life, and quit stumbling over them. Actually, I guess my in-the-end goal is to fill in as many of the potholes as possible, but right now...eh, I've got a hell of a lot of school left before I can do that.
If you ever hear someone say, "I'm going to a vocational school, it'll be faster." Do them a favor and knock some sense into them. :oP
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you'll be dead. you won't care much ;)
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