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sleep of the insmniac
3:00 AM
bathing me in it's blinking green glow
again.
it never fails;
this party never stops.
always crashing on the couch.
have i been here before?
maybe,
i've seen these shapes i think,
or am i dreaming?
moot point;
it's always the same regardless:
the girl with the spark of
madness and beauty.
it's the same old frayed but effective trap,
the prosperity baited ( Read more... ) -
Poem i've hadn't posted
alone again.driving though the city late at night;
watching the pattern of lights on the dash.
50...60...70...
i don't even notice
where am i going? doesn't matter
just meet me there.
my life is the seductive drift of
the last cigarette, smiles
showing through the haze.
an hour later the sun is coming up;
the ghosts are christened by light.
i've known these ( Read more... ) -
Airplane Poetry
i'm the last one in the theatre.
the cast has long since left.
the stage is lit by hazy dreams.
the audience, fictitious...
thank god i know these lines by heart.
i give the play for nobody at all
and i've never been more nervous;
at the end:
no applause, no roses, no girl.
i turn off the lights and go home. -
i should just shoot myself
she's in my head
so she's always watching. even
though she's three thousand miles
away.
she doesnt know who i am but,
goddamn she's beautiful
so i polish my brass
and flaunt it as gold.
it's my fantasy,
but I'm the only one who doesn't believe it.
i'm trading my identity for her
a value greater than virtue
i dream
kissing her lips
and the mask fits a little ( Read more... ) -
Current Thoughts I'll probably be ashamed of later.
I've been noticing a trend.
He's always waiting in the corner of my eye.
Despondency, leave me I say.
And he'll just laugh.
You fool, you call me every day
You hold me by my name
Hold someone else just as tight
and I'll up and let you be
So I look around
for someone to pull me from myself
to save me from myself
my self-created hell
but i've already burned that ( Read more... ) -
Trying my hand at some vague form of poetry fail.
torn tickets on the desk for two; a show ( Read more... ) -
A Nostalgic Seduction
A snippet of time cut from the flow ( Read more... ) -
I'm Fine. Song 3?
I'm Fine ( Read more... ) -
Some Noteable Events
So yesterday was my Tuesday night NA meeting. It's pretty awesome, and I recommend everyone going because it's an open meeting, meaning everyone is invited. I saw Donnarynn's brother and his girlfriend there, which was pretty cool. Afterwards, I ended up going to Harbor House with Jason, his gf, Ryan, Aaron, and some chick I ended up giving a ride ( Read more... ) -
Occasional timeline of events post
So I'm working on Project 55.5. Writing songs is harder than I thought. I have almost two done, but I don't like them very much. As for my third...well. Let's just say he's dead to me, so I'm still stuck at two. I don't like writer's block, but it happens to me a lot. I have the fluency of a fifth grader.