Motivation Slump
So, I am still laid up with my broken leg (though that's over-dramatising it, seeing as it's only a hairline fracture and a sprain), slowly getting back to walking without a splint and crutches, but not ready to go back to work yet
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Ugggh I'm so sorry to hear that you banged up your leg. I hope you're able to take some more time to rest up and let it heal. ♥
I wonder why that is? Uni-related burn-out that got me in the habit of procrastinating absolutely everything (even things I love) just for procrastination's sake years ago, and that I've been unable to shake since? A perfectionist's sense of self-preservation, meant to keep me from sinking infinite time and attention into something I'll never be great at/get no practical value out of? Lack of an enthusiastic audience? A mixture of all of these? *sigh*
Any advice?Sending some hugs. ♥ And, yeah, I'd definitely vote with a mixture of all of those, gah ( ... )
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Thanks, love! I still have next week off, and I hope that will be enough, otherwise my job security isn't looking too good. (It's illegal to fire someone over sick time here, but I'm only a temp, so they can get rid of me in a heartbeat for any other reason they want.)
Sending some hugs. ♥
*hugs back gratefully*
And, yeah, I'd definitely vote with a mixture of all of those, gah.
Yeah, probably, it's never just one thing. That would be too easy. :/
And as for advice... hmm. First off, in terms of the uni-burn-out-procrastination bit... I know for me, for the three years since university ended, being creative with fandom-related things (writing, drawing, making gifs, cosplaying, whatever) has kinda been like reclaiming some of the creativity and life enthusiasm that uni kicked out of me, if that helps. ♥ Uni taught me some very poor life habits, and I'm definitely actively working to kick those.I'm ( ... )
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Ugh I'm so sorry to hear that, truly. Shitty employment situations are not fun. :S I'm sending lots of good thoughts, and I really hope your leg gets feeling better very soon. ♥
I'm still working on that. I'm making inroads on the sleep patterns, but otherwise I'm still caught in some very negative habits (procrastination, avoidance, aimlessness when not on a deadline, lack of long-term planning...). I am glad to hear that it is possible to shed them -- kudos to you for the progress and having an actual strategy! :)
Eeee, thank ya. It's been almost three years since uni, and I'm finally starting to recover. XD As for making inroads on sleep patterns - boo yeah! That's so awesome, it really is. And best of luck with everything else. ♥
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Looking good! I've got some more physical therapy coming up, but I should be able to get back on my bike this weekend and thus to work on Monday. (It's terrible, not being able to ride a bike! I can't get anywhere like this! My mom and friends had to bring me groceries for the last three weeks.)
Eeee, thank ya. It's been almost three years since uni, and I'm finally starting to recover. XD
*fistbumps*
Yeah, I understand that. Writing can definitely be an incredibly aggravating process at times.
But the maybe 5% of the time where it's not aggravating, it's awesome, like the best kind of trance. XD
Well, I'm very glad to hear that you've found a writing activity that's currently working for you. :) And, yeah, kink memes are pretty awesome.
They can be inspiring, yes! Low pressure at least. But I don't always have the strength to go wading through all the kinks that squick me. :/
Ahahaha yessss Hobbit bunnies. ♥ My Hobbit ships are Thorin/Bilbo and Bard/Thranduil... ( ... )
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I know exactly what's going to happen, but can't be bothered to actually work on for more than five minutes without being frustrated because the words don't come out right.That happens to you too? I'll know exactly what the scene needs to be, and yet writing it down will still be the slowest, most painful process ever, because I can't make it resemble the thing in my head. I fully understand why you procrastinate--that's why I like challenges/exchanges. If I don't have a hard deadline and the threat of disappointing someone, I tend to get bored and give up ( ... )
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Don't be! I get to not go to work. ;) (Seriously, though, it's a fucking nuisance. So thank you for the sympathy.)
That happens to you too? I'll know exactly what the scene needs to be, and yet writing it down will still be the slowest, most painful process ever, because I can't make it resemble the thing in my head.
Exactly this! All the damn time! Sometimes something else decent will come out, but it'll still be completely different from the story I had in my head.
I fully understand why you procrastinate--that's why I like challenges/exchanges. If I don't have a hard deadline and the threat of disappointing someone, I tend to get bored and give up.Very true! Deadlines are the best way for me to get stuff done, too, but on the other hand, they stress me out, and having to ask for extensions or even drop out wrecks me. (Happened more than once.) I was so glad I didn't sign up for Yuletide this year, because I enjoy life in general much more when I'm not stressed out and don't have to force myself ( ... )
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