where to start... ummm... im kind of seeing someone right now... having a total blast with her. i know girls have ruined it for me when i have something good and im just afraid to pull the trigger without examining every detail. im either really unlucky or just paranoid with women. but i guess i deserve to be... oh well.. i just dont want to hurt ( Read more... )

i may be over my past... i may not be emotionally unstable or upset about being alone.... considering, its easier and i like it. but that doesnt mean i wouldnt have loved to spend my christmas eve with her. for now, at least, she's still who i think of when i see my family... that will change in a few weeks methinks.. hopefully to jesse's friend ( Read more... )

so yah, i found two amazing women this week thanks to friends... i really think both of them are cute and i dont know them either that well... thats what happens when you dont look. i have to remember that shit... well, 14 hours of work tomorrow... call me please!!!!!!! 873-7681

and then, when most unexpected... i found my reason... i found my rationality... i met a girl last night that got me to realize how many great girls there are left and right. this hippie chick helped me in ways she couldnt even comprehend. im finally over my baby, i can breathe again. feels good to be on top.

ill fight it for as long as i have to. it wont be easy but im doing it.

i miss a few people like whoa right now, a bunch of friends have gotten/coming back from college. i have to see like all of them... well, maybe not all of them, but that person isnt worth seeing.

for the people i miss like whoa
1. i miss you
2. i really miss you
3. <3 ( Read more... )

going good for now, much better than like 3 days ago... i miss a certain person a whole bunch. im disgusted by another person recently. love my close friends..

i took a survey and it said "marital stutus"... i just replied with... "no thanks"

most of the times that i feel like everything is coming together, im wrong and things come crashing down again and i have to restart the process all over again. this though, is reality. i dont things could get much better after all ive been through over the last 2 years. the emotional trauma was incredible. i almost didnt survive. i hate the saying ( Read more... )

you cant bring me down... im right where i need to be

you know what guys... if you all want to jump on the bandwagon at the same time, then go ahead... i will not be brought down by ignorant/self-centered people in my life... SO TAKE YOUR BEST SHOT. i will not succumb to the arrogant ramblings of people ive havnt seen or talked to in months about how im a dirtbag. NONE OF MY FRIENDS SEE ME!!!! HOW ( Read more... )

the update on people in my life:

lindsay: you're there when i need you
bri: you're always there
jill: no change (still <3 ya ( Read more... )