Haven't updated in a long while. Wow ( Read more... )

My Spring break probably sux compared to every one else's but it's been good enough for me. Haven't done anything besides work ( Read more... )

I'm at school. 10th per. yay!

Not much to write. ummmm.

Hoping to go to the Ashlee Simpson concert next month. Then today I found out that Kelly Clarkson is coimg next month too.

I wanna go to both.

So I get up to go to school this morning. I'm tired. I go in to tell my mom that I'm going to go in late. So I go lay down again. I wake up and can't seem to pull myself out of bed. I'm so tired. I feel drained. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. I was doing so good. Then all this ( Read more... )

R.I.P. Carol Fay McCreary <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Grandma

Happy Valentines Day !

I'm going through a phase of denial. Where I won't allow myself to feel anything. If somethings going badly I'll just seperate myself from it. Which is good in some ways. But in others it could be bad. I think I'm just trying to avoid my feelings, because I don't think that crying about it will fix anything. It never has in the past. It just makes ( Read more... )

I'm having a really big problem with this school thing. I just can't seem to get my ass up to go. This is my second day this semester, plus I've gotten 2 tardies. How that hell am I gonna make it at this pace. I'm trying to damn hard to do well, N I am only when I'm there. The weird this is, is that I actually got out of bed this morning and ( Read more... )

It weird how we can be so close, yet so far away. How we can be so confused yet understand so much. How we can see right through each other's smiles, and look deep inside, and notice "what's really beneath" all this bull shit. How we can talk for hours and still have more to say. How we've grown up together N I kno we will never let go. How deep ( Read more... )

Soooo. Me N Shaun went out to dinner last night. I think were kinda together. Which isn't what I really wanted. I just have a really hard time being with somebody. I won't allow myself to feel nething for nebody right now. I honestly can't handle a relationship right now. I've never really been able to. But I've already gotten myself into this. It' ( Read more... )