so you can't hold a star in your hand/at least you can hold onto another plan

Dec 14, 2010 15:01

So my existence lately has been a pile of shiiiit. In case anyone was wondering ( Read more... )

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kinvore December 15 2010, 05:25:46 UTC
*hugs*

I've missed you. Sorry to hear things are so messed up for you right now. :(

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shake_yr_fist December 16 2010, 02:58:33 UTC
I've missed you, too. Thanks for the note, it helps a lot. You sound like YOU'RE doing better, which makes me glad to hear.

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wrenriddle December 15 2010, 15:41:37 UTC
Jackie, it sounds like to me, is totally and utterly out of control. I cannot WAIT (CANNOT WAIT OMG) for you (and David, jesus) to get out of there.

It seems so totally unfair to me that you and David are so wonderful, but have this family that is just... wacky. I wish things weren't so bad for both of you right now. I wish things were NEVER bad for you, but I do realize that this is a somewhat unrealistic wish. xD

I really want you to be able to do the things that YOU want to do, to have the family and life you've always wanted, and to not be constantly shouldered with all of this responsibility that is just dumped on you over and over again.

::HUGS.:: In short, I love you, and am glad to know you are alive, but not glad that things are so shitty. Let me know if there's anything I can do. <3

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shake_yr_fist December 16 2010, 02:56:08 UTC
I keep trying to remind myself of all the ways it's made me strong/smart/(eventually) kinder/self-aware, etc. I hope this generation-- me, David, our cousins-- will be the ones to do better. We're trying. Even Jamie, for all my complaints/worries, is trying her best and making me prouder than my own mother ever has. So there's that. But yeah, it sucks hardcore.

Anyway, I'm really sorry I've let our communication kind of fall by the wayside while I've been trying to deal/adjust. I miss you lots (LOTSSSS). Hopefully, now that I've vomited all this, I can sit down and write you an actual, non-woeful email, haha. Thanks for the support-- it means a lot. <33333

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