Private!
Being with Atobe was... amazing. I haven't been able to write about it until now. I'm in a bit of a bad mood, all things considered. I didn't want to feel anything but the physical contact and heat, and now I find myself wanting him back. He's asked me to the ball, and I accepted... These feelings, while ridiculous, I'll welcome. At least I feel something. When I was with... the other person, I was worried that I would never feel anything but lust again. Now I feel respect and admiration, even just a bit... And there's the delicious control he gives me...
Maybe I should go easy on you until after the match, hm?