Girls~
[Private]
Atobe's behavior toward me has changed... dramatically over the past few weeks. As anyone can see in his latest entry and accompanying comments, he's.... calling me his... girlfriend... In front of other people. (Unless of course, playboy that he is, he has someone else... Honestly, he's clever and I wouldn't put it past him. If he's referring to me, though, well...)
His affections have become public, beginning with the kiss at the kissing booth. I hesitate to call what he and I have a "relationship" though, as I really cannot see myself with a single person for any given period of time. Granted, Atobe is a genius and quite fun to be around, but I simply can't... stay. I won't even pretend to know how to be a girlfriend. I've never known what it is to feel genuine affection. My whole life everything has been about power; I've been user or used, nothing else. Does he expect me to be his girlfriend? I really... I don't know how... And I'm infuriated because I don't understand why part of me still feels strange about sleeping with Fuji! Is this... guilt?? Why should I feel guilty? Ah. Fuck~.
Wouldn't it be hilarious if one of us fell in love with the other? Of course, it would be him first... still, amusing thoughts~. As if I'd ever fall in love. Hah.
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[to Atobe]
Did you mean me when you mentioned having a girlfriend? I wasn't informed of my... status.
We're... still going to the masquerade together, right?, I presume. Come early. I'll double-check the fit of your costume.
[/Atobe]
I do believe that Ravenclaw has the most attractive boys-turned-girls in the entire school. Oh my~. The joys of appreciating the female form are rarely utilized at this school, but I am so very, very happy to be bisexual at the moment. Too bad they'll all be back to normal, or I could have fun while I'm stuck here over Christmas.
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