introspection.

[shandaiers]

life starts with numbers, pressed against the back of your mind, clear as processed day.

starts with small memories. your mother, smiling serenly, hand atop your hair. your father, broad shoulders hitting against sunlight. hair sprawling against your back, peeking out from your hat. fights, when they think that you're asleep, hiding behind the

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[dustyfairy]

okay. on my phone and waiting in this insanely long lineup. scrolling through lj and aha! i find this.

AND WTF SD.

YOU SAID YOU COULDNT WRITE.

LIAR.

BIG. FAT. LIAR.

hours left alone in a dark house, shadowed by nothingness, and sometimes you think it's okay. it's alright, really. eight rooms. three bathrooms. three people. reduct one. two left. subtract another. one left. that's you.
sobs bc this actually made me teary and now im wondering if i look like an idiot as i furiously type into my phone while sniffling.

starts with what they say is success except you've never felt like such a failure in your life.
srsly tugged at my chest. like. ow.

;;~~~~~~~~~~~~;;
you is such a liar. you can so write. jfc. words choice, imagery, the way you set the mood, it was all perfection. omg. like /HOW/ do you even like my writing. i compare myself to this and already feel unworthy of such praise. man i cant wait until you write a fic or smething. wow. i think this just brought out feels in me that i never wanted to see /sobs/

[shandaiers]

I really can't write, though. ;A;

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry. ;-;

but thank you so much ;; I really like your fics and think that they're brilliant. so shhh no don't say anything D: I don't think I have the patience for fic to be honest :'D

awn. have a cookie? ;~;

[envybleedsgreen]

Of course you can write. As my soulmate, you have to be able to. ;-;

And this is gorgeous. Completely and absolutely gorgeous. I don't have any words to express my feelings, because you hit me right here in the heart so badly it aches.

[shandaiers]

well if that's the explanation ;~;

awn, thanks ;; I'm sorry about giving you feels, I didn't mean to do that D: but I'm glad you liked it! <3

[envybleedsgreen]

NO. YOU ARE ALSO BRILLIANT, BY YOURSELF.

[summerrainsonme]

oh bb ;~;

what are you saying, you can't write. this was beautiful.

i think i sort of know what you're talking about. and i just want to let you know that it wasn't your fault, and you are not a failure. who else is so witty when talking with an elder, ffff -

anyway, the writing style was beautiful too. the choppiness gave it some sort of...trembling feel. like something was locked up that you couldn't wait to get out. i knew it was a good idea for you to get an LJ. ;-;

我希望你会写更多的未来, 小妹妹!

[shandaiers]

only toward you jiejie :'D and sometimes I feel like it is.

hurr. no that was me attempting to write, it wasn't on purpose ;-; but thank you for liking it!

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