My Angel
055. Shatter, Kangin/Kangin
Title: My Angel
Pairing: Kangin/Kangin, Kangteuk
Genre: angst
Rating: pg-13
Summary: My only angel, today is our 4th anniversary. You know what, I did all the things on the list that you made… read to find the rest ^ ^
My only angel, today is our 4th anniversary. You know what, I did all the things on the list that you made. Now, I kinda proud of myself because of that.
I’m asking you my angel, why is it so easy to get used at you? Why can’t I have enough of you? The first one week after we became a lover, I can’t get enough of that unique laugh of yours, I can’t stop to look at your angelic face and the dimples that shown, and then I already missed you when we were apart even for just five minutes.
After we lived together, I can’t seem to get enough of you. I’m so used with you laying beside me, to hold you in my arms and sleep, to found you still sleeping in the morning, to kissed those lips and wake you up, I can’t seem to get enough of everything about you.
Here I am, laying on our bed alone… I looked at the ceiling that has our picture. I remembered you’re the one who made it and I protested about it at first. But, I feel thankful for it now because, I still can see you before I sleep, remembering the sweet times we’ve spent, and hoping that I’ll dream about you in my deep sleep.
My beloved angel, I can’t sleep tonight tough. I missed you too much till the point that even when I looked at your photos, it isn’t enough anymore. I want to hold you again. I need you… so bad my angel… what should I do? Tears are formed in my eyes now…
My angel, how is heaven? Have you asked God too, why He took His beautiful angel from me so fast? Why He won’t share His most beautiful angel to His human? To me… because I can guarantee him that, I would be the one who protected you. No one can stained your beautiful figure. My angel, do you remember the times when you said that you loved me so much? Can you beg God to bring you back to your loved one?
I remember the day when you told me that you were sick, the day when the doctor told you to stay in hospital, the day when you were saying “sorry for not telling you about this sooner” and you were crying after that that. I remember how hurt it was when I know about the illness, how hurt it was to see you crying like that, it broke my heart… shattered into pieces…
I know you were crying too in the hospital, but you never show it to me. You were smiling your angelic smile when you feel that I’m awake. No my Angel, I’m not sleeping when you were crying, I only pretend to because I know you didn’t want me to know it.
“Kangin-ah… I want you to live your life till the ends… promise me?”. You know exactly how much I wanted to end up my life after you’re gone. I never told you that but, it was like you read my mind when you said that with that smile. I keep my most difficult promise my angel. I lived the life that you wanted me to keep, the life that we’ve done in the past. But it’s hard without you by my side…
I miss you… I miss you so much my angel… I want it so badly to go to your place… but I can’t, right? I have promise that I need to fulfill… so, until we meet again my love… there won’t be the second love in my life because, this life is belong to my angel… my angel Teukie…