How does something so insignificant creep in to spoil your night and destroy your day? 

This very heart which is mine will for ever remain indefinable to me.
Between the certainty I have of my existence and the content I try to give to that assurance,
the gap will never be filled.
For ever I shall be a stranger to myself.

- Albert Camus

So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons.
And maybe we'll never know most of the time. 
But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from,
we can still choose where we go from there.
We can still do things.
And we can try to feel okay about them.

- Stephen Chbosky

We could pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars; no one ever said you couldn't pretend.
It's the time you spend in realisation that the pretence was futile, and that even behind every star, there's really just one big empty space.
It is that time you spend, that cripples your heart. 

Should have stuck by this other one that I forgot about.
Life is a journey of a war of emotions. When you let your guard down you let your immunity troops down and open the gates to an familiar force that has no basis to fight for you.
Putting it back in place all over again.

Isn't it funny, the voices that don't seem to be yours, reminding you of how you forgot to live by a principle you use to swear by before ( Read more... )

Another night of confusion and not knowing what exactly the blame was for. Seems to be for everything. Faulted for things out of my control. There seems to be no hope. I fight, but the walls are growing up against me. Feels like a losing battle. Can't sleep for this despite the importance of tomorrow. What do I need?

Perhaps Nelly Furtado was right.
All good things come to an end.

When I'm alive on LJ, it simply means ... I've nothing else to do again. Because I'm back. For 6 years. Before I go home to. Canada.
Photo update should come soon, here. I think.
I'm back and I'm so not used to ... the weather, right-hand driving, the Singaporean accent, SO MANY CHINESE PEOPLE, my house, the food, using LJ, soccer world cup instead ( Read more... )

I'm unabashedly happy here in Canada. It could be the honeymoon stage of having a holiday in another country, or it could really be because I don't feel the things I feel at home ( Read more... )