My son has been looking at me and saying "Ma-ma" for the last few days.  It started out being mostly when I would put him to bed at night and refuse to pick him back up.  Of course I go and comfort him when he wakes up and is upset, but the days of me picking him up constantly and bringing him to bed with either Nan or myself is over.  No one was ( Read more... )

Jacob's first Easter warrented a change to baby blue for my text.  Of course, I may be the only one who sees the text in baby blue, but that's good enough for me.  It was a great first Easter.  I bought Jake the most adorable little suit.  It had navy pants with suspenders, a short sleeved button down light blue shirt and the most adorable little ( Read more... )

It's been far too long since I've posted.  I'm a lazy little thing.  Not a whole lot going on.  Being depressed all the time makes for a very long and tedious life ( Read more... )

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Haven't written in far too long.  Been in the grip of depression again.  Not good.  Still there, but getting better, I hope.  I just seem to have no "oomph" no drive.  Going to try to force myself to snap out of it, though.  Going to see Dr. M on Friday and hoping that we'll try a new anti-depressant or something.  Maybe something to sleep as well ( Read more... )

I did more cleaning today!!  I am always so proud of myself when I get something accomplished.  We're having a "slumber party" here tomorrow night, (so if anyone needs/wants to buy and goodies, let me know), and I want the house in order.  The biggest thing for me (Andrea and her little sister are handling the rest of the house) was getting Jacob's ( Read more... )

Okay everyone, I think it's time for some new anti-deppresants. This morning/afternoon I was so up, I was so happy and so proud of myself for accomplishing so much and then tonight, I'm so freaking depressed again. I touched up my hair tonight, and something went wrong. Don't know how it happened, or what went wrong (it's the same color I always ( Read more... )

I am feeling so good about myself today. Last night I cleaned the hell out of my bedroom!!! I decided that the laundry needed to be sorted b/c I was sick of looking at it...Sunday seemed like a good day to get it all done. I started out sorting the laundry at 11 pm last night, and before I knew it, it was 2:30 in the morning and I had swept, ( Read more... )

The depression was back today. Not as huge and crushing, but there, none-the-less. I'm feeling fat, lazy, worthless etc. Then I see Jacob and his little face lights up when I walk into the room...it makes it all worthwhile ( Read more... )

My child is absolutely precious. No particular reason for this comment, just thinking about how much I love him. I've been worried about our bonding or lack thereof lately, but it seems to be working itself out. These last few days, Jake seems to light up when I walk into the room. He reaches for me when he sees me and stops crying (sometimes) ( Read more... )