blehhh

my mom is sick. shes getting worse. idk what to do anymore..and how can i be strong for her when i have doubts myself? i feel guilty for these thoughts that ponder in my head, but what am i supposed to do? im so confused..

anyways, so today i woke up at 8am to go babysitting for this cute little girl named julie. then after that, i got ( Read more... )

It really scares me to know how people truly feel/.think of me.

thanks to allison i still have faith in people's genuine friendship and sincerity in people.

thanks to allison i still have not attempted to throw my life away and give up on myself due to what other people tell me i am..

thanks to allison i still have the courage to stay strong and ( Read more... )

I miss kyle. I miss the girls. I miss my dance chickies. I miss a lot of stuff that i took for granted..and it sucks. Regret is the worst thing...(besides burnt brownies) I miss being in high school, and being so carefree about the world..so oblivious and sheltered to what was actually going on around me. I miss having those shades over my eyes ( Read more... )

I guess this is what happens when you get really bored at 2am in the morning. Everyone is off to college, including my brother :o( I miss you dude! (lol he only left today) Allison isnt gone yet, so thank goodness for that shat. But rae is gone and all the clunk girls are gone cept leea..so many people are gone now..just us townies left lol Well ( Read more... )

hey all..

I'm in kind of a bla mood..woohoo! nothing really interesting to talk about. I miss dance, a lot. I miss being on stage already..being backstage and getting all frustrated cuz my fishnet stockings wont go on right. ohh (not really the fishnets, but its a fond memory trust me lol) I miss screaming "YEAH BECKY" and "YEAH CHAPS" and other ( Read more... )

people make me happy..cool people that is :o)

Happy birthday to CHAPS and LEOPARD! I love you guys so so much!

anywho..the recital was..ehh..well WE DID GOOD! the music was well..wtf, but whatever.

Why am I writing in sentences? I'm famous for my lists?..

HIgHLiGhtS-(as usual) and lowlights as well..sadness of life

-wendy trips..always pleasant..

- ( Read more... )

I'm going to make a list, bc i hate writing in paragraphs..

just stuff..deal with it..

i like allison, shes the bestest thing ever. movies-random driving-more movies-harrassing our brothers-partying-i like it all..spending this whole summer 2gether..cuz thats what we do..package deal playas (lol idk..im retarted)

kathleen, i love you so much. ( Read more... )

I'm so confused. Last night I was crying, feeling all sorry for poor shannon, and i came to the fucken conclusion of how pathetic my stupid life really is. Who do I complain to when I get sad?.. myself. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of listening to myself whine and hearing all that is so 'horrible' that is going on in my life, when really, its probably ( Read more... )

ehh whatever. I'm supposed to be studying and doing my accounting HW right now, but i have opted not to.

so yeah, work was interesting this weekend. I like working there more and more as I continue to go there. The people there are really cool (minus the chain thong wearers) and it reminds me of the thatched cottage with the close nit atmosphere. ( Read more... )

DareDevilWKB: ok soooo you know how i have ll tht work to do yeah i sat here for like 20 mins just reading your onlone journals..... now you would think that i never rea them before ..... nope not the case.......anyways i misss you soooooo much LUV you more then ou know can't wait to see you ( Read more... )