So my bioligical dad sends me a text message yesterday (8/28) and says happy early birthday Ill call you tomorrow love dad. Well...on 8/29 did I ever get anything? Of course not. I wish I could pretend that his LACK of support and participation in my life has effected me, but it has. Tomorrow I go look at the future place where Ill get married, and ( Read more... )

I just went and read almost all my old entries.

hahahaha

I LOVE doing that. It has made me so happy. To see how far Ive come, and how far I have to go.

Plus the pictures were pretty funny too. :)

I've had a lot of 'problems' in my life..and a few dillemas. But this one by far is the biggest.. The worst part is I foresaw this a long time ago.

Who's going to walk me down the aisle?

And even bigger than that ..

How do I ask a father who hasn't been very involved with me (Im always out of sight out of mind)...if he wants to be involved ( Read more... )

as of yesterday... im officially engaged!!!

My poppies went in his sleep last night.

Thats the first time I could say it..I kind of feel like if I dont, it wont be true.

I am being so selfish, and I know it. Well-- Im a woman, what can I say ( Read more... )

I think sitting up here is more theuraputic to me then anything.

Im here in the waiting room of the ICU at Memorial Hermann. We were supposed to go to Sam's Club yesterday to get some stuff but Poppies "wasnt having a great day" so we didnt (he has the card and wanted to go with me and mom). So we waited until today. Mom called and said "Well Grandpa isnt doing so good..." She said she was going to get dressed ( Read more... )

Im in the ICU waiting room with my poppies...

all your thoughts and prayers are welcome.

It never seizes to amaze me how everytime I go back to Dallas--how different it seems. I say "seems" because its some sort of thing that you dont even realize when you're there..and if you do, you get used to it. Its a whole "I dont do anything unless it beneits myself." Its nuts. People become to Dallas-ized. I wish I could just blame that on ( Read more... )