shinee; down the drain

[kyaa_kawaii]

Down the Drain
gen, friendship!OnTae (Onew/Taemin), g
“Hyung,” he sat down on the opposite side of the table, “hyung, why does one love?”

A/N: You have no idea how happy I am to get this piece written, mostly because it's been like forever since I last wrote anything :) A very, very big thank you to x_saru_x and thundersquall for helping and giving advice ♥♥♥



Jinki remembers it wasn't that long ago Taemin came to him, saying ”hyung” in a serious voice. Really, it hasn't been that much time, half a year - or perhaps a whole year ago. (Jinki doesn’t really remember anymore, time just seems to fly by and everything is pressed together in a mix of practice, fans, sore throats, joy and injuries.)
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“Hyung,” says Taemin, crouching down next to Jinki lying on the floor, “hyung.” Jinki opens an eye and peers up at him.color:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US;mso-fareast-language:FI">

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“I’d think so.”

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“You ask too difficult questions, are you sure you have no homework?”)

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“I believe you want me to talk now?” Taemin glares at Jinki. “It probably depends on the person. Personally, I’d… I’d try to throw away love and everything related to it.”mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";color:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US;
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“No, not love altogether forever, just the part that’s connected to the person I don’t love anymore.”

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“Well, yes.”

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“I- uh. Let’s watch this movie.”)

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“Doesn’t look like nothing.” He doesn’t get an answer and watches in silence as Taemin burns up one, then two, five, eight pictures and gathers the ashes into a pile in a small cup, pouring water on them. He empties it into the sink. “Why are you doing this?”mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";color:black;mso-ansi-language:EN-US;
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“I’m throwing away love.”

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The End

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