Okay, I am messed up. I know everyone is. It happens....its called life. Anyway. I had this dream a while back that got me thinking.....probably too much cuz when I think I tend to think too much. Let me start out by explaining that I met someone at work and we have become friends. We don't talk often per say but we talk and we have started hanging ( Read more... )

Stange title, I know. And it isn't literal. I've actually never had the explosive kind.......that was probably tmi. So back to the point of this entry. My feelings lately feel like that have been coming in explosive spurts....bad image, I know, sorry. But when you go months without feeling much of anything except an occasional loneliness, then ( Read more... )

I was thinking the other day about a good friend I used to have. I never wanted to lose this friend or friends but I feel like I have lost some. I was thinking about them all the other day when I was thinking about best friends. I've had a total of five in my life. And most of them I don't talk to much if at all. I have not talked to Jenny in a ( Read more... )

The last post may have been about only one who was growing too attatched but also being annoying. I hate it when people hang up on me and trust me if you ever do, you will feel my wrath in every excruciating way. But thats all resolved now and we still talk. Sometimes I'm a ridiculously forgiving person. As to why my post is again about boys....I ( Read more... )

What is it with boys these days? When did they all get so damn stupid? proclaim your deepest care, but you don't understand me enought to even know when I'm joking. Get over yourself, I'm not taking everything you say so deeply to heart so lighten up. You pissed me off. you get hurt by anything and everything I say, then how the hell am I supposed ( Read more... )

"Crashed" DAUGHTRY ( Read more... )

I'm in a blah mood tonight. It means I'm quiet, I'm boring and I'm easily annoyed. Normally this wouldn't be a big deal. I'd go to bed and no one would even know about it because I got home late enough to mostly avoid my parents. However, I have others to worry about now. I worry about how my mood is affecting him. I really like talking to him but ( Read more... )

I know that I owe who ever reads this an update.....which I don't think many do. But I feel the need to update anyway. So I went to California the 2nd through th 7th. I had a lot of fun. We didn't do much except stay around the house but I loved it. I got to hang out with my niece and when she was napping I sat outside in the nice warm sun. My ( Read more... )

Yes I am home again. Back from Cali. I had a very good trip, but I am too tired to go into it now. We got back late on the 7th. I worked 9-7 today and I get to do it again tomorrow. Sunday I also have a long day......sorry my long explaination of my trip and its exciting details will have to wait for another time, when I'm not so tired or being ( Read more... )

Yes, this is directly to you. I'm hoping I can get this off my chest so I can finally get some sleep. I am angry. I think its in your general direction too. We have been best friends for....what is it? three years now? Something like that. Anyway. I love having you as my best friend. I have often thought about more because you seem to understand ( Read more... )