Gahh I haven't updated in a while and I'm sorry but I just need to vent. I'm so frustrated and angry all at the same time. First. Men. They are stupid. Gahh. Why do I waste away my time chasing after a guy who will never like me and considers me 'not his type' and I know I shouldn't try to change but its killing me inside to find out what 'his type ( Read more... )

Gah so I've finally gotten to a point where I actually feel like updating my lj. I need to type out all of my Clarkson camp memories (or atleast most) of them in here too. Well here goes ( Read more... )

My only post for today is sad. Today marks the 2 year anniversary of losing Trevor Ettinger. We all still miss him. Here's a poem I wrote about him once:
In my mind you are a fog ( Read more... )

Gahh! I'm such an idiot! Why is it everytime I like a guy I don't realize it until I screw things up with him!? Gosh I guess its times like this where the saying 'You don't appreciate what you have until it's gone' really kicks in. I'm so stupid. I hate men too why do they have to be so stupid. You would think since I'm stupid and they are too it ( Read more... )

Hey guys I'm back from camp. It was really awesome but I'm too tired to type everything down right now. Lol I'm so pathetic. I slept 12 hours 2 nights ago then 5 hours of naps then 8 hours last night and I'm still trying to make up for the week!!! Gah so I'm still here and I didn't feel like commenting on Jeff's lj so I'll say my comment here- OH ( Read more... )

Ok. I'll finally update. I'll update right. Ok. On Friday I went out running with Kaliney poo and Liz and I did pretty well. In my new shoes :D. My knees still kill me when I run and when I don't rest them but eh I need to get them stronger and I haven't been doing my stretch that i'm supposed to :O. I love my shoes they are so shiney. They are ( Read more... )

NO! I'm going to make this a sucky entry on purpose so you people stop telling me to update! I DON'T WANT TO AND MY LIFE IS BORING SO SHUT UP. My knees hurt like crap because they are connected to some muscle in my thigh that is weak so when I run I'm gonna fall over. I suck at running. I think I'm worse this year than the first year I started. I ( Read more... )

Gah someone please tell me why I enjoy running when I get home and crash on the couch from tiredness and dehydration and then take some ibuprofen for my knees which feel like they will fall off? If anyone can remind me PLEASE tell me why. Thanks. I want to go see the new penguins at the zoo just to sing them my penguin song. Its a masterpiece. Ahh ( Read more... )

Gah ok so much to update. I want to watch my soaps but then again I don't. O well. I should do this or I never will. Ok so Thursday I went to Becky's house with the whole gang and we caught salamanders and stuff. Thats not what we went there to do but salamanders are good haha. Friday was Jess' party which was wicked fun. Except for the fact I got ( Read more... )

Gah, I was going to update but now I don't feel like it. I'll just say that I'm still alive and I'll update later tonight or tomorrow. Oh crap I have to run tomorrow -fake sobbing noise with alittle of a whine- No clue how long we're running, but it starts bright and early at 8:30....torture. This will kill my out of shape legs/butt area. I'm ( Read more... )