I am heaven sent.

[sharpxtears]

I'm making this entry public so everyone can know the truth.

Yesterday Lindsay, Eileen, Elizabeth and I all went to the hopsital after school.

Finally Elizabeth and I went in to see her and I'm telling you it made every tear and doubt go away. She looked at me. She started crying and trying to talk and grabbed my hand and I just wanted to rip the

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[xxdiorama]

hi Laura, i dont know if you remember me. its josie..we used to talk a bittt a while-ish ago. I got bored and went to my lj friends page and i saw a lot of yur recent posts. i am so sorry for everything you're going through. and i know this may seem weird or stupid that im telling you this but really, you're going through so much right now and you really dont deserve all the pain. i cant even imagine how hard this is for you, but i can tell you're such a strong person. i really hope you and all your friends are ok. This is so much for all of you..im so sorry and i send my love to you <3

[sharpxtears]

of course i remember you. Thanks so much for all of your support. It's been a rough week but it can't last forever right? If I didn't have all of my friends then I don't know where I'd be right now. Thanks for the comment. <33

[xxdiorama]

no problem at all, i really wish i could do more. and you are right for sure, things will get better! You really are so strong and have such a positive attitude, which is the best thing anyone can ever do. Its so frusterating to see people at school crying saying they hate their life because their parents wouldnt let them go out on Friday night or some lame shit like that. Its good you and all yur friends have eachother :). Things will get better for all of you, just like you deserve :)

[takinitback]

Thank you for getting that out. About people not knowing Brian or Nicole and crying and just getting attention. It pisses me off very much. If you talk to Nicole tell her I said to hold in and for some fucked up reason this all happened but eventually things will get better.

Can anyone visit her?

[sharpxtears]

It pisses me off too.

They should be moving her into a regular room in the next day or two. She's up and talking and already bored and being a smartass. <3

I'll let you know when she gets moved

[darkpepper87]

ergh, i dunno, i understand that you might feel posessive towards brian and nicole since they were such close friends and it was such a tragic accident. However, just because other people who don't necessarily know your friends as well as you do care about them doesn't mean they are faking it. I think if anything you should be happy every one is showing so much love for them. Personally, I was upset, really upset, when I found out about that car accident, I cryed. I don't know Brian or Nicole very well, I don't know if they disliked me, either way it's irrevelant. They are my peers, and something terrible happened to them, I would never wish that on anyone, and the fact that it happened really saddened me.
Maybe alot of other people are having those same emotions, and you should try to respect and embrace the compassion they are showing.

[awesoem]

you dont know me but i was sad throughout the week because of this. its really rough losing someone close to you - i know how it feels. it was a reminder to everyone that we are not guarrenteed tomorrow and i think that scared everyone at our school, which is why everyone was being so emotional about it. i admire you and all of your friends and all who knew brian for being so strong through all of this.

[runrabbitrun___]

hi Laura,

i know me, you,and nicole and alot of other ppl have fallin' out of touch, but please send my best to nicole and tell her i love her mom's bownies and grilled cheese sandwiches for breakfest after a long night of camping out in her backyard and being fucked with by a 12 year old skater boading clut...and i hope you are going to be ok, but i know both you and nicole will be bc your strong girls and can't wait to see nicole when she gets back to school, or home.

all my love, mallory.