i think it hasn't gone away completely because I'm holding on to it. i don;t want to let go of it because of what she and i had, because of what she meant and will always mean to me.
i still have nightmares every now and then about her. nightmares in which she cries or hates me for the way our relationship ended.
hold on to your hope though. in a weird twisted way i have too, even though for me it is forevermore impossible.
i remember the 'one year ago today' day. i remember every minute of that day, how it went from hopeful to nervous to understanding as i walked in that it was over to the punch in stomach when i realized that i couldn't make him love me.
just. it seems like you have a lot going for you. and it helps me to realize all the great things that would never have happened to me if i was still in that relationship.
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side note: if she broke your heart so carelessly she was not a friend and never was. you deserve better.
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sorry for your pain man, i understand all too well.
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does the hurt ever go away? is that even possible? or is life just a series of distractions we use to ignore the pain?
people like to use language with me like "move on" or "get past it". but it's so vague. what does that even mean?
i guess i just try to hold on to that small sliver of hope that one day, things will truly be restored.
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it hasn't for me, but it has lessened.
i think it hasn't gone away completely because I'm holding on to it. i don;t want to let go of it because of what she and i had, because of what she meant and will always mean to me.
i still have nightmares every now and then about her. nightmares in which she cries or hates me for the way our relationship ended.
hold on to your hope though. in a weird twisted way i have too, even though for me it is forevermore impossible.
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nope.
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but it will get better.
i remember the 'one year ago today' day. i remember every minute of that day, how it went from hopeful to nervous to understanding as i walked in that it was over to the punch in stomach when i realized that i couldn't make him love me.
just. it seems like you have a lot going for you.
and it helps me to realize all the great things that would never have happened to me if i was still in that relationship.
*
side note: if she broke your heart so carelessly she was not a friend and never was. you deserve better.
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