good times
excerpts from joyce's ghe-tto online journal:
"left the bar at around 4:30 with katherine tina bryan jasmine; katherine wanted to go drink with nuri haha but she didn't get to cuz we dragged her away from him" --> emphasis on the 'drag'
"[on the train home] katherine suggested that she and i have a blinking contest, and everytime she said 'ok start' she was blinking like crazy and she didn't even know it hahaha.. and when we had a laughing contest, everytime she said start, she was already laughing.. and then she tried to draw on tina's face with eyeliner but tina woke up, and when she still tried to do it, tina was too tired to stop her.. man hahaha"
if patty's pool party never comes to fruition, jeff's bbq on sunday is probably the last time i'll ever see half of my asian schoolmates again. and as much as i grew sick & tired of them over the course of 6 years... i still feel a sense of loss, & so much wistfulness. it really hits home how i'm all i have -- same goes for anybody. because as close as people may become... we lead completely unique lives, & eventually, we all go our separate ways... on paths that may never cross again.
maybe for this reason, the bbq was so mellow. the fantasia party was all-out, everyone trying to milk the last moments of togetherness for all high school was worth. but by sunday, you could just hear the impending 'good-byes' hanging in the air. no one wanted to leave.
it's amazing. 1 moment, i feel like a released red balloon, up, up & away into the sky, free... & the next, i'm sentimental, trying to cling onto the very things i was dying to liberate myself from 2 seconds ago.
during the bbq, i had to escape to the park with jasmine & joyce to get away from it all, & just become a little kid again. we jumped around on one of those clangy bridges, shaking it & screaming. & when we went down the big spiral slide, i was 1st... & i pretended to be a scaredy-cat 2-year-old, inching down on my butt & bare feet and making sobbing-moaning sounds (that actually sounded real, bwahaha).
and then we played HUMAN rock-paper-scissors (my idea, thanks). which is the STUPIDEST game ever!!! i was scissors... and jasmine (rock) kept banging into me and i'd yell, "FOR FUCKSAKE HELP ME JOYCE!!!! GO GET HER!!!" and she'd come barreling at jasmine then get this petrified look at her face & charge off in the other direction once she realized i could cut her. so basically, we ran around and around in a circle, gasping from out-of-shapeness & laughing our asses off.
me & joyce also jumped around catching fireflies. we'd be like, "oohh, ah fiah-flyy" & they'd land on our palms, glow, twitch & cool their little butts, & become a regular disgusting "AACCCHHH BUGGGS!!!!" & we'd spaz out trying to get them off of us.
if she weren't such a fairweather friend, joyce would be one of my best friends. no one else can make me laugh so hard, & i've known her for 12 years. that's a long time, man.
yesterday, met up with jasmine & mish in the city to see lilo & stitch. can i take lilo home?? please?? & then the 3 of us went to a playground in central park & i heard michelle (!!) say things like, "well, i was quite a rock-climber in MY day" & kick off her shoes & scale everything in sight. we ran in & out of the sprinkler.. & i took a little boy's hand & danced him around. & let little kids push us around on the tire swings, & i'd say, "ready guys, 1, 2, 3, scream!!" and we'd scream, the kids the loudest... and god, it was so much fun. so refreshing.
and - OH YEAH!! last july, i took a photo of a little girl named jessica... and put it up on my website (later took it down after deciding i didn't like the print anymore). she's the one lying flat on her back in the sand, giggling... you can see her underwear. well -- yesterday, i saw her again!!!! a year later!! how about that :) i said, "are you jessica?" & she's still as cute as ever, just 4-years-ol now. she has huge hazel eyes, & her face is both roundish & squarish -- very recognizable. & i told her about the photo... & she asked me if i had it at home... "well, actually - it's on the internet..." (please don't go repeating this to your mum & provoke cardiac arrest, little girl) ... & i wanted to take her home too.
also - i just want to add... i definitely am a little kid at heart. i can pretend to be one better than any other almost-eighteen-year-old :D