Don't You Know Who I Think I Am

[shay_writes]

I've reached the ripe old age of forty-eight and I'm still discovering who am I. Just when I think I have it figured out, the world shifts and everything I know is distorted. It is similar to gazing through a child's kaleidoscope, the view is constantly changing. When I was twenty and barely dipping my toe into life, this wasn't the future I

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[kickthehobbit]

I'm glad to see you're back. ♥

[shay_writes]

Yay! Gary didn't give me a choice. :)

[lapis_lazuli615]

The picture of my life is constantly changing as well. 45 is much different than I ever thought it would be. Wonderfully so in some ways, horribly so in others. I've come to the conclusion that my lesson for this lifetime is acceptance. It's a hard pill to swallow sometimes.

Good Luck in the competition!

[shay_writes]

Thank you and good luck to you as well!

I'm not alone!

[lordrexfear]

I have 10 years before I reach and recently have met people older than me who think I'm a kid till they find out how old I am and then reconfigure their thinking.

I think/know/sense you're one of those whose opinion wouldn't change their opinion... or at least would appreciate how old I am to how old I seem.

[shay_writes]

:)

Maybe that old saying is true, "You're only as old as you feel." I can't believe I'm going to be 50 in two years. I still don't feel very "adult" on the inside.

(second time leaving this comment. I forgot to log in first)

[shay_writes]

I hope I can find time to read all the entries. I've been juggling stuff lately and barely remembering to breath.

Thank you! <3

[logical_fallacy]

I wallow more than I should, but this resonates with me. It isn't exactly the life I envisioned, though I can retrace the steps that got me here and see how it happened. I wouldn't change much, if anything, because you never know what you'll lose if you do that.

What a long, strange trip it's been.

[shay_writes]

I'm with you on not wanting to lose anything. I didn't like having two failed marriages, but I like the kids they produced and I wouldn't want to change that one bit!