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[shaygr]

idunno, I use to think differently

...but recently I'm really liking the appeal of smoking.
and I'm just holding myself back from trying it out.

seriously holding myself back here.

Trying to figure out what I should do.

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[dumdumdumbutt]

but-

b-but you'll smell )::

also I want to listen to that canada song now... thanks, geez

[shaygr]

m m m more money. more money from where?

idunno. I just dunno. ):

[dumdumdumbutt]

I'm not your guy, friend!

):

[jotsalot]

Don't smoke, really. Everyone I know who smokes wishes they could stop and I've had two family members die from lung cancer because of it. It's something to do with your hands, a semi-cool reason to demand to take a break at work...but really, it's just not worth it. Keep resisting because wanting to smoke is like wanting to get a tattoo--the urge comes and goes.

Tattoos are cool though. Get one of those instead.

[shaygr]

..D:!

thanks for the post. I know it's super bad. My mom does it, and my dad died because of it. ><

I think it's because I've been feeling way too much like I'm some prude, innocent 18 year old virgin. Losing my ability to connect with my age group sucks bad.

Maybe I'll try the tattoo..

[jotsalot]

You know, I'm not too much older, 22, and I know this will sound motherly, but honestly, 18 is a funny age. You should never do things just because you feel a sort-of obligation to be comparable to the people you know--instead, surround yourself with people who accept you for who *you* are and the decisions you've chosen to make.

Aside from that, I don't think it's necessarily the best thing to feel like you can only connect with your age group in those ways...when you get to be a little older, a year or so into college, those things won't even matter anymore. Stay strong in yourself and the person you are and just know that there will always be moments in life where you feel socially awkward and there will always be conversations you feel you can't quite hold up. But definitely don't use that as an excuse to do damaging things to try and fit in, whether that damage be physical or emotional, cigarettes or sex.

You're awesome the way you are!! Don't ever doubt it!! And you're young. Too young to feel left behind. *nods*

[shaygr]

sorry for the immaturity of it all. In junior high I was much more "fuck yeah video games" and much less "let's try out boyfriends and taboos 8D"

in retrospect, the maturity of the situation I'm in kinda balances it out. yay for having to barely make it through life and schooling with absolutely no money in the bank.