I could really use a nap right now
So i was doing quite well, considering the possibilities. But for some reason it has all caught up with me in the last few days. I shouldn't be this stressed, it is summer!!!
Work is interesting. Commuting sucks. I hate adding about 2 hours to my work day just to get there. New store opens in a week and a half, so that means everyone leaves at the end of next week. I dunno, kinda scared. But maybe the change will be good for me. We are so understaffed, i don't know how its gonna work after the new store opens, i hope our new manager hires people quickly. Im not looking forward to having to work 40 hour weeks to make up for the lack of baristas. Scratch that... I will NOT work 40 hour weeks to make up for the lack of baristas. My tossing around the idea of trying to get promoted at work. I would then be required to work at least 25 hours a week.... im not sure if i can handle that, but i would like the change of responsiblities. I dunno, I think i'm gonna hold off until our new manager and all our newbies get settled before I make that decision. That way i know for sure I can handle being around that store for the rest of the year.
I've been helping my friend Ellie with her wedding plans. Its just inforcing how much I really don't think I could ever deal with planning a wedding of my own. It seems so stressful, and costs WAY to much Haha, and Katie thought I would be hard to deal with if/when i am ever pregnant, think of the horror of me trying to plan a wedding. Scary. Got my bridesmaid dress, gotta go see how much its gonna cost me to get it altered. Really don't want to pay any more for this thing, considering i will never wear it again, but whatever.
Realized a couple days ago that i have about $4k more in loans that we somehow didn't factor into our figuring of my finances. Which comes out to me now being offically in debt. Which is unbelievably annoying, considering how much money i have wasted in the past couple months. But whatever. Working 30 hours a week will hopefully help that situation a bit more.
I hate the 4th of July. Definitely one of the worst holidays. Drunk people trying to blow things up...never a good idea. In addition, I live by the reservation where they have a wonderful market this time each year call 'boom city.' Basically selling completely illegal stuff to the entire area. And despite being illegal, fireworks are going off constantly starting about a week ago and continueing until after the 4th. So i get no sleep.
My room is still a mess, full of random boxes and crap. I need to organize it all. But i'm getting kicked out of my room for a week, starting next weekend. So i need to have it all somewhat cleaned up by then... But I have no clue where to put all this crap.
I actually have 3 whole days off now! So maybe I can get more than 5 hours of sleep a night. And try to get some of the stuff i've been wanting to do done. Probably not though. Im sure my mother will have plently of stuff for me to do this weekend while they are out doing whatever.
Whatever happened to taking a break?!? This was suppose to be my month off of school to relax and get reading done, and watch movies... HA yeah right! I also picked up my book for my class this summer. 1600+ pages!!! WTF! All in about size 10 font.
Im thinking way too much lately too. Which is never good. And I know I shouldn't be, and I feel horrible for it. I think its just all the stress and being too overwhelmed with everything. But that's really no excuse. I don't know where it all came from and I know none of its true. I just really wish I could turn off my head sometimes. My sleeping used to do that so well for me. But within the past couple months I've realized naps aren't helping. Since when do my naps not make things go away?!? It also doesn't help that I have no time for naps anymore :(.