[xx ] I'm afraid of silence ( Read more... )

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confused
when people say things
that take heart
that take apart
and leave the insides folded out
mind upon mind
video of plans
that never became reality
and leaving deepest secrets
unturned
but cleaned off
and put back away
words with meaning
without context
is this what you wanted?

i cant take it
im really confused

i like people who talk about me

as if they have any idea of what they are talking about.

from now on i have only 4 friends.

if you thought we were friends i think your mistaken

i have no other friends.

Kt swall, Johnny, Nana, and ill leave the last one for who ever

i feel can fit the spot.

because at the moment i dont feel like anyone else needs ( Read more... )

IVE LOST EVERYTHING.

im a drug addict

an alcoholic

a liar

lazy

an idiot

or at least thats what my family thinks of me

you screw up one time and youre a piece of shit

fuck

i am again in algebra 2.

we have a substitute. yay. and hes clueless. ergo i will be doing nothng except for eating fruit by the foot, texting, and getting on el jay and reading pointless information for no reason other than the fact that i refuse to get on cognitive tutor (the computer math thing i have to use). i wish i could get on myspace. now ( Read more... )

so im in my algebra 2 te class. yea im dumb. what of it?anywho everyone has to take this dumb test and i dont.  why? because i missed about 6 days of school.  yay for me. actually it sucked. i was really sick and im reallly happy to be better. well atleast mostly better. my boyyy comes home today and i cant wait. i miss his scrawny butt. hes ( Read more... )

1. pook and i are friends again.

• which is nice.
• even though we were never friends to begin with.

1. baby boy and i are friends again.

• which is great.

fuck

im annoyed

why am i having doubts.

why is everything going right then just turn around and smack me in the face.

i dont get it.

im a good kid.

i try to do the right thing.

but im never good enough.

fuck.

i like _____

but ______ is unsure of everything

and gone all the time.

and i mean shit...

what am i supposed to think?

____ means alot to ( Read more... )