first ever fanfic! "I hate this and i love you"
FIRST FANFIC -"i hate this and i love you"
don't be too harsh!
This is before they kissed and sian and helmet head are still together :(
Disclamer - i own nothing!
Sophie lay on her bed starring blankly at the screen of her phone, she had her ipod playing loadly on shuffle. She had recentley gotten into rock music and had it blarring out her bedroom every weekend in an attempt drown out the rest of the world. Since Sian and Sophie had the argument about Sian breaking her vow with Ryan they had started to drift apart and Sian now spent all her free time with Ryan. Sophie was considering whether or not to text her and ask her if she wanted to meet up and did'nt hear Rosie banging on the wall inbetween their rooms screaming for her to turn down her music. After several attempts Rosie gave up and stormed into Sophies room straight over to her docking station and pulled out her ipod. "oi i was listerning to that!" sophie shouted at rosie and attempted to snatch back her ipod "glad ive finally got your attention!" rosie said holding the ipod high in the air so tha sophie could not reach. "what do you want?" sophie questioned rosie "should'nt you be listerning to some hymms or something a bit more churchey?" rosie said ignoring sophies question she just recieved a hateful stare before sophie rolled over in her bed to face away from rosie. "look soph, i know im not very good at the whole sister thing but i know somthing or someone has upset you...you've been acting all weird for weeks, if theres anything i can d-" she was cut off "no rosie there isnt, i just wanna be left alone"
Sally was becoming very concerned about sophie over the past few weeks, sophie just spent all her time in her room, barely eating. She'd recived a phone call home from school from one of sophies teachers who was also concerned as she was slipping behind in her school work. when Sophie returned from school sally stood at the bottom of the stair case to block sophie from running straight to her room "soph hun, what up? you can tell me, i know when you are upset i can tell. come on tell me everything" sally said in a soft voice causing sophie to start crying. as the sobs grew fainter sally asked again what was wrong "you would understand" replied sophie who stood up and walked out the house leaving a very worried and confused sally. Truth is sophie was just as confused she had no idea what was going on in her head, ever since her and sian stopped meeting up ever since her and ryan grew closer sophie felt like a part of her was missing like she did'nt belong. she didnt understand why she had the feelings or what they ment. all she knew was that there was only one person who knew how to make her feel happy, who set of fireworks through her body with every touch and that was sian.
sophie wondered the cobbles before decieding to go and get a bottle of water and some pain killers to get rid of the headache that she was starting to get from all the crying. looking at all the different tablets on the shelf sophie was trying to decide which ones to get but could'nt concentrate on reading the info on them as her head was now banging! "soph?" sophie span around so quickly at the sound of the famillar voice that it caused her to loose her balance. luckly sian caught her in her arms and pulled her back to her feet, she took a step back inspecting sophie, "soph, hhhow are?" she stuttered, sophie just looked at her she could'nt take her eyes away from her lips, she could see they were moving but the sound was'nt registering. why am i looking at her like this, god she is beautiful and thoughs lips... she was brought out of her thoughts when sian started waving her hand in front of her face. "soph?" "hmmm, what sorry?" "i asked how you are but i take it not very good! have you been eating?" sophie had lost lots of weight, she never felt hungry. she could even think think about food there was only one thing she could think about! "im sorry? what buisness is it of yours!" sophie could feel her self swaying and stumbled forward grabbing the closest thing infront of her to stop her self from falling.sian. "here let me help you" sian once again settled sophie on her feet "i dont need your help!" sophie spat and tried to storm of but once again stumble over this time she feel flat on her face passing out.
"soph? sophie?" sophie opened her eyes slowly to see sian starring down at her holding out a glass of water, sophie accepted the water and sat up to take it and relised she was now lying on the sofa of sians dad "how'd i get here?" "well dev was too busy to care that you'd passed out and i did'nt have my phone to call you mum or an ambulance so i carried you back here" sian said in a quiet voice "oh, well you should have just ignored me you've become very good at that!" sophie attempted to get up but her legs had become very weak in sians presents and she feel back onto the sofa. "sophie im sorry, i know i've been a complete bitch..." "you can say that again!" sophie cut in she did'nt know why she was being so mean to sian when really she was so glad to be soo close to her, "ive really missed you, and i know that what i did was wrong and that i should never have slept with ryan, i knew i never loved him, i never really fancied him either i was trying to prove something to myself" sian was now fighting back the tears that were building up "prove what? that you would sleep with anyone who offered? if you dont even like him then why?" "SOPHIE! im not a slag! i was, i am, well.." "spit it out sian i aint got all year!" " i was scared, i wanted to prove my heart wrong! soph ive been in love with...with someone else ever since i met them before ryan, only i've never had the courage to tell them, i thought what i felt was wrong, i thought if i shut them off, forgot about them i could learn to love ryan but i could'nt and i never will thats why i left him" "you left him!!? ...anyway whats this all got to do with me?" "dont you get it soph? why i had to ignore you, never reply to your texts or calls, why i just pretended not to see you across the street. argggh! sophie its you it always has been!" "god no i dont get it!whats me what are you on about!?" sophie cluched her head which was once again sore "i love you sophie webster! i cant go on lieing to you or myself anymore!" sophie did'nt say anything she just sat very still and looked straight into her eyes. she was shocked but not disgusted infact it suddenly made her relise that it was that, love, love is what she felt for sian and hearing those words leave her mouth made her feel like what had been missing inside her was slowly starting to come back. she leaned in slowly and captured sians lips in a passionate and meaningful kiss.
sorry for any spelling mistakes! what do you think? should i continue or was it crap lol?