Comments | shecomesincolor: I need to get out of here

shecomesincolor

I need to get out of here

Aug 07, 2006 20:57

I can't really seem to decide what it is that I want out of life and what I want from other people. I just feel so restless and dissatisfied with everything. People who are important to me that I thought I was also important to have already gone back to school without so much as a phone call. Others complain that they hate when people don't return ( Read more... )

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strberrieblonde August 8 2006, 01:53:14 UTC

i can honestly say that I wish we were close friends in high school and we were good friends now. i thik we would be close.

this is a weird comment, but.....i think it'll be okay with you...

wakeuphappy August 8 2006, 02:43:51 UTC

so i somehow knew you would be posting today, and voila! here it is. when do you work this week? i'm 5-9 MWF and 12-8 TTH so i'll give you a call when we're both off

anonymous August 8 2006, 05:48:47 UTC

hey girl~ first off, i just wanna say im truly sorry for not calling you this summer. i would really have loved to see you, but i have been pretty busy and not often in town ( ... )

teacuphearts August 8 2006, 05:56:22 UTC

bah! i guess i wasnt signed in when i wrote that last thing but its okay cause i thought of something else to say. its retarded, but whatever.

dude. i feel like i need a therapist too. or some freaking meds to make me feel normal. but from people i've talked to everyone seems to feel this way. the world is just an insane place to be these days. stick with it. you are stronger than you think and one of the most intelligent girls i know. don't even sweat it. just enjoy life and keep doing the becky things that you've always known and loved. it's too short to be scared or sad. make the best of everything.

hm. i think i will attempt to take my own advice. i have stressed and cried and tried everything else but that. here's to a fresh start and a better year~ :)

hairtie22 August 8 2006, 14:25:37 UTC

So, I think you're too hard on yourself. This kinda stuff happens to everyone. Ya know that you're really happy with yourself when you say "I just don't give a fuck what everyone else thinks". Not meaning of course you abandon your own morals and beliefs because you're mad at the world, but because you're doing your own thing and not worrying about how other people respond. Do you know how many times EVERYONE gets blown off? do you know how many times I've been blown off? I know, how do you think i've felt the past 3 "poker nights" when ONE out of 10 ppl show/respond? i could have gotten upset, held a grudge on all of you. BUt really, I decided I didn't give a fuck, and made other plans, and had just as much fun. Yeah, I understand the feeling of calling and getting groups together, and everyone bailing or not responding. See, I think I've figured out that people put up a front. A fake front that keeps them from being honest. Example: A few kids from GA state were going to go to mrytle beach last weekend. I organized 2 WEEKS in ( ... )

stellina_alta August 9 2006, 22:45:16 UTC

First of all, I want to say that I love you Becky. Not in a romantic sense, but I just adore you as a person. You are incredibly deep, artistic, and truly intelligent - not just book smart. You've got something within you that I connect with and that I don't see in other people from high school...or even in college.

So, I'm going to comment on some of your beautiful words.
(BE AWARE, these are just my ideas. I don't mean to preach or make it seem like I have all the answers. I don't. This is just advice I have from personal experience and I hope it can be of some help.)

Also, I wrote so much (because I am a lunatic) so there will be multiple comment posts...probably around five.

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stellina_alta August 9 2006, 22:46:42 UTC

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"I can't really seem to decide what it is that I want out of life and what I want from other people. I just feel so restless and dissatisfied with everything."

I've felt this way often and still feel like this sometimes. All I can do is tell you what I think about the subject. You'll have to decide if what I say relates to you.
For the restlessness (I think satisfaction comes after the fact) within the indecision about your life I would say (as dumb as it sounds) you have to actually sit down and think about what it is that you do want out of life. You have to decide. Because the truth of the matter is that its up to you, no one else despite what some may say. It isn't your friends' choice, your parent's choice or your degree's choice. Its yours. What you may wind up loving as a life and a job, you may not have even experienced yet. But when you do it will hit you and you will know that it is meant for you.
For me, I could never hold a 9-5 job. I've realized this about myself after taking time to analyze my ( ... )

stellina_alta August 9 2006, 22:47:49 UTC

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stellina_alta August 9 2006, 22:50:00 UTC

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"I'm sick of my parents. I have no relationship with my brother. I no longer run in groups, so I spend hours every week working out alone. I read alone. I write alone. I eat alone. I feel useless and confused. I feel boring, too serious, and full of complaints and worries. Is it so much to ask that I wish that I had friends who called me to invite me to do things?"I think everyone gets tired of their parents. I know I used to get along with my mom really well but this summer we're at each other's throats. Its gotten to the point where I don't even think I can live with her next summer. So this seems pretty normal. So is not really having a relationship with your brother. I don't have any siblings but from just listening to other people this seems like a common issue and generally seems to resolve itself as you get a little older ( ... )

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