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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!!!!
The following information will consist of details about me you may have never known or perhaps will be afraid once you know them. The idea was borrowed from my Canadian buddy, Amanda so here goes nothing…
1) I’ve been talking about studying abroad ever since I got to YCP.
2) Going to Australia or England no doubt in my junior year.
3) Dan surprisingly mentioned that he’d like to go with me if he can get his mother’s permission.
4) Dan is one of the nicest guy friends I will ever have.
5) I’m not used to men being nice to me before getting to YCP besides my brother and Jumper
6) My dad appears to be a friendly, outgoing, caring individual, but he most certainly isn’t nice.
7) I no longer waste tears or anger on him. Perhaps some anger is still there, but I choose to laugh about it.
8) He plans on getting married on June 10, 2006, but I don’t believe anything he says anymore and my brother has refused to be the best man at the wedding.
9) Gosh, my brother rules. Hope he reads this because I used to have my friends tease my brother harshly when younger and that is something I now regret.
10) I wasn’t a bad kid growing up… a bit negative, lazy, skipped school every now and then and mouthy… but I should have taken more risks, stood up for myself, stopped caring what people thought of me.
11) I am now working on this dilemma while recovering from some self-inflicted depression that swallowed my mind for 2 months.
12) 2 months ago I hated myself for wanting a man who will only be my friend. His mind games and actions did not help the situation get any better. Doubt he knows how much I did hurt.
13) Men are so oblivious and many run away at the first sign of emotion.
14) Hope my son (if I ever have one) can show his emotions without appearing gay.
15) If he is gay then that is not a problem because I would want to teach the lessons of self-acceptance and tolerance of alternative lifestyles and whatnot.
16) Too many people are quick to judge others on the shallowest things like clothes, hair, money, etc…
17) What matters to me about a person is if they are reliable, genuinely caring, and there for the people they care about.
18) Nothing else really matters so enjoy life.
19) Why didn’t I see this at a younger age? There are so many things I should have said or done to make my life better, but never took the full force into changing.
20) In 1st grade I had the HUGEST crush on Mark Logorda, but could never talk to him. Sillyness. Everyone knew, but I liked the idea of having a crush on him more than wanting to be with him.
21) I had several other crushes throughout grade school. Mostly on people I felt sorry for, found humorous and by no doubt, knew I would never tell them because I didn’t like them enough to take the risk of having my first relationship.
22) Most people don’t know about my first relationship in the summer between 11th and 12th. Some know bits and pieces, but I’m not sure if people who don’t go to YCP know the whole story… not that the YCP people actually do either.
23) How funny that I could keep something that changed the way I see people and particularly men from all of these people who care about me.
24) I think the reason why I go so attached to an individual at college was because he was nothing like Chriss and he would never try to inflict pain on me. Funny how this is number 24
25) Think about what I just said people and you’d know the significance of the number, lol.
26) Numbers/numerology used to be a big interest of mine in middle school. Amanda S and I used to look at books in the Lehigh Valley mall. Fun times.
27) I put on so much weight after she moved back to Pickering. Guess I REALLY missed her. Definitely not her fault though.
28) I take people moving away from me HARSHLY since its happened quite a few times. That’s why Katie leaving YCP sucked since I got attached and had to let go and then walk past her room everyday because I MOVED to her freaken building to BE WITH her.
29) I now enjoy living in Penn Hall minus living with some sorority bitch that thinks she owns the place. At least the showers in Penn are AMAZING.
30) Life is so amazing-when ya think everything is going to hell, something happens to make everything feel better.
31) There is little in this world I know about, but I do know there is something good about Earth.
32) When saying this, I don’t mean God per say… I’m Jewish, but I don’t care if god does or does not exist. Much more interested in the cultural aspect of what it is to be Jewish.
33) Tis okay if I lost you on that one… most people find me a bit odd.
34) I like being viewed as wild, crazy, passionate, odd-that is how I plan on living my life.
35) Whenever we were going to go anywhere as kids, my mom would plan everything out. Planning doesn’t work HEATHIE so don’t bother.
36) Heathie is my best friend. We met in my 6th grade class. Went through middle and high school together which had its ups and downs. Such an influential person.
37) She now goes to school in E-town.
38) I’m sorry, but that town either smells like chocolate or POO
39) The smell of poo reminds me of the horses who used to shit near my fence at the old house in Hanover Township.
40) I grew up at this residence. A suburb child who rode bikes, took the school bus, had my circle of friends, went swimming= average life.
41) I always compared myself to other people-the talents, experiences, where they have traveled, and whatnot.
42) Just because I have only been to about half of the US states, Ontario, and the UN does not mean I wont get my chance to travel.
43) Even middle class people get to see new places and explore.
44) I want to be average-to know I’m working to provide for family and myself. Having too much money would cause too much greed and poverty makes little time for vacations, heh.
45) Average as in I get married, have a kid or two, buy a home, a car, go on family vacations, etc… something I WANT more than anything, but don’t usually admit due to fearing I wont ever get this.
46) My family is my mom and brother-they’re the best and we are still close, but I would like to add family members to that list J
47) WE all want love, passion, desire, and happiness in our lives. Why do some of us sell ourselves short and take a temporary relationship when we should have held our ground and waited for a more suitable person to come around?
48) Happiness is on the top of my list. To wake up, struggle through some boring and not so boring college classes, exercise, eat dinner, study, socialize, etc… and going to bed feeling like your day was wonderful just for being uncomplicated.
49) Not every day can be exciting. I always whined about being “bored” while watching some crappy TV show and scarfing piles of food down my throat. Boredom and habit bring about obesity-no doubt about it.
50) Even at 1055am (present time) I’d enjoy walking downstairs and eating a box of Girl Scout cookies. Not gonna happen this time. Will have a couple like 4, but the box will then close afterwards.
51) Losing weight is a huge priority now-for my health, to get off the medication that fucks with my hormones, and to feel better all around. Not as much for looking better. Maybe that’s why I never lost all of the desired weight-it was to look better for other people which is ridiculous.
52) Yesterday, Karin and I went to the Mary Kay class for my mom-she thinks putting crap on my face makes me look better apparently. The other girls agreed. Felt very out of place, but I’m trying the washes, acne treatment, concealer, foundation, lip gloss, mascara, and eyelash curling for my mom’s benefit.
53) My mom being this happy over me making some changes with myself is well worth it. Plus, I am admittingly curious about seeing my face not so red all of the time. Change sure is scary.
54) A little fear adds some joy and excitement
55) A group of us from manor north and, south, and north east last semester went on a haunted mill ride around Halloween. My RA held my hand and screamed at all of the stuff. Was sooo funy being the one to take charge and lead everyone through the maze.
56) I like being in charge/the leader/making an impact on other people
57) I’d make a good teacher as long as I realize I cannot change anyone-they have to want to change. I can however be a good influence, teach them some fun stuff about history and be there for them if they need to talk.
58) People call my cellphone at all hours to talk and I usually answer. It has become my tracking device.
59) I was 14 when I told Amanda S that cell phones were stupid since people could always find me and now look at what I sai for number 58. Oh, how things change yet stay the same. Hey-this was the number in my first sn- lilikiki59
60) I’m not sure which screename I like using anymore. Must keep in mind that not just one thing defines a person and for pete’s sake, stop taking everything so symbolically, LOL.
61) I’m more of a serious person. My mind constantly ponders everything, but I put on a happy face to the world even when I’m miserable. That’s something I DO like about myself.
62) There are plenty of other things I have discovered that I like about myself, but let me move on to something more interesting…
63) Movies are the best entertainment
64) The reflect every type of human emotion, make us feel like something has changed once we walk out of the theater.
65) The best films make you speechless. The Phantom of the Opera did this for me. Was speechless for 30 minutes-my mom was getting worried.
66) I first spoke at the age of 4. My parents thought I could possibly be deaf or mentally slow. Apparently, I just take my time and once I get a concept, it REALLY sticks.
67) I continued to be a slow learner, was placed in learning support during elementary school yet was excellent at math and still am one which has always made me believe I was smart enough.
68) I’m still excellent at common math, but I suck at algebra. Damn letters get in the way. Well I should try harder anyways. Heh. People at college other than 1 don’t think im good at math then, but I am decent in statistics, trig and everyday math mostly.
69) Relax, it should matter. Ohhh, on number 69.
70) I would make a comment about what I just said, but my brother can read this. Haha. Funny story though so let me know if ya wanna ever hear it.
71) Sensorship really bites because this list could be more interesting.
72) Always made me wonder why southern schools ban books like Huckleberry Finn.
73) Reading used to be a strong passion of mine. Books are friends on any given day.
74) I’ve lost my attention span on reading for pleasure.
75) I’m reading Crime and Punishment at the moment, but am only on chapter 3. I might push myself to keep on going and if it still sucks on chapter 6 then I’m stopping for good.
76) sometimes people just need a push in the right direction.
77) Like when I had to push my mom into letting my take French instead of Spanish.
78) in 10th I dropped out of French and wound up at vo-tech for horticulture like a slacking moron, but by 11th I was back in French.
79) my floral arrangements turned out to be pretty good. Shame the vo-tech was full of people I didn’t like and the school was a joke otherwise I would probably be going to a different college for a different major.
80) There is always time to change, but I’m gonna stay put at YCP.
81) plenty of time to learn new things.
82) I’ll learn more about Prince Edwards island in may since that is when my brother and I are driving up there. Woot, more states ive never been to and then another province. How fun.
83) May is also Nicole H’s birthday, krissy’s and katie’s- awww, my YCP gals. Hehe
84) I’m looking forward for warmer weather
85) I want to ride a swing in the sunshine
86) must call alyce sometime and go on a swing with her like old times. She was a friend of mine since the age of 4, but we more or less stopped being good friends in 10th. Shit happens.
87) Sophia was another friend I used to have. She and I grew our hair really long and she had hippie parents. She used to be cool until she went to the other middle school, slept around, stopped being her individual self, got addicted to E and probably cocaine ( not sure about the 2nd one) and stopped eating.
88) Shame how amazing people can turn into the worst of ppl
89) She had a double shower so we took a shower at the same time once.
90) weird how it didn’t mean anything then, but now im like “wow, I let someone else see me shower when I was 9 and 10, how strange!”
91) No I’m not a lesbian people although women like to ask me out.
92) I’m still not sure why that is. Maybe women like other women with more meat or their bones? Lol
93) We’ll all find someone during some time in our lives. Might get lucky and fall in love several times.
94) ive never felt “true” love, but I think I was in love for a couple weeks.
95) okay, don’t roll your eyes because I never said who I was talking about!
96) ya think ya know but you have no idea…
97) MTV used to actually be a cool tv station. I only watch fox and WB now.
98) holy shit, I forgot about the OC yesterday-noooooooooooooooooo
99) next week at college, ill get to see it. I leave for college on Sunday sometime.
100) Not wanting to go back so soon, but I’ll make the best of it. And this is where I wound up for number 100
Amanda S had to show me how to make all of that info a link. I'm going to write another one more interesting in the next week-probably wednesday night after sociology since my sociology paper is due that night and I must work on it during Monday and Tuesday. blah.
Amanda D is no longer coming to York this weekend. sorta annoys me considering it was her IDEA and SHE ASKED ME IF SHE COULD COME DOWN AND VISIT!!!! gah, I'm okay now. lol At least the canadians still are coming for the saint patty weekend. Dan's 2 friends might be coming during that time too so the more the merrier!
Hung out with Johnny, Steve, and Amanda D last night. saw the jacket. not worth $8.50. That's a ridiculous price for regal anyways... double gah.
my face looks so different or maybe it's just me...
The following information will consist of details about me you may have never known or perhaps will be afraid once you know them. The idea was borrowed from my Canadian buddy, Amanda so here goes nothing…
1) I’ve been talking about studying abroad ever since I got to YCP.
2) Going to Australia or England no doubt in my junior year.
3) Dan surprisingly mentioned that he’d like to go with me if he can get his mother’s permission.
4) Dan is one of the nicest guy friends I will ever have.
5) I’m not used to men being nice to me before getting to YCP besides my brother and Jumper
6) My dad appears to be a friendly, outgoing, caring individual, but he most certainly isn’t nice.
7) I no longer waste tears or anger on him. Perhaps some anger is still there, but I choose to laugh about it.
8) He plans on getting married on June 10, 2006, but I don’t believe anything he says anymore and my brother has refused to be the best man at the wedding.
9) Gosh, my brother rules. Hope he reads this because I used to have my friends tease my brother harshly when younger and that is something I now regret.
10) I wasn’t a bad kid growing up… a bit negative, lazy, skipped school every now and then and mouthy… but I should have taken more risks, stood up for myself, stopped caring what people thought of me.
11) I am now working on this dilemma while recovering from some self-inflicted depression that swallowed my mind for 2 months.
12) 2 months ago I hated myself for wanting a man who will only be my friend. His mind games and actions did not help the situation get any better. Doubt he knows how much I did hurt.
13) Men are so oblivious and many run away at the first sign of emotion.
14) Hope my son (if I ever have one) can show his emotions without appearing gay.
15) If he is gay then that is not a problem because I would want to teach the lessons of self-acceptance and tolerance of alternative lifestyles and whatnot.
16) Too many people are quick to judge others on the shallowest things like clothes, hair, money, etc…
17) What matters to me about a person is if they are reliable, genuinely caring, and there for the people they care about.
18) Nothing else really matters so enjoy life.
19) Why didn’t I see this at a younger age? There are so many things I should have said or done to make my life better, but never took the full force into changing.
20) In 1st grade I had the HUGEST crush on Mark Logorda, but could never talk to him. Sillyness. Everyone knew, but I liked the idea of having a crush on him more than wanting to be with him.
21) I had several other crushes throughout grade school. Mostly on people I felt sorry for, found humorous and by no doubt, knew I would never tell them because I didn’t like them enough to take the risk of having my first relationship.
22) Most people don’t know about my first relationship in the summer between 11th and 12th. Some know bits and pieces, but I’m not sure if people who don’t go to YCP know the whole story… not that the YCP people actually do either.
23) How funny that I could keep something that changed the way I see people and particularly men from all of these people who care about me.
24) I think the reason why I go so attached to an individual at college was because he was nothing like Chriss and he would never try to inflict pain on me. Funny how this is number 24
25) Think about what I just said people and you’d know the significance of the number, lol.
26) Numbers/numerology used to be a big interest of mine in middle school. Amanda S and I used to look at books in the Lehigh Valley mall. Fun times.
27) I put on so much weight after she moved back to Pickering. Guess I REALLY missed her. Definitely not her fault though.
28) I take people moving away from me HARSHLY since its happened quite a few times. That’s why Katie leaving YCP sucked since I got attached and had to let go and then walk past her room everyday because I MOVED to her freaken building to BE WITH her.
29) I now enjoy living in Penn Hall minus living with some sorority bitch that thinks she owns the place. At least the showers in Penn are AMAZING.
30) Life is so amazing-when ya think everything is going to hell, something happens to make everything feel better.
31) There is little in this world I know about, but I do know there is something good about Earth.
32) When saying this, I don’t mean God per say… I’m Jewish, but I don’t care if god does or does not exist. Much more interested in the cultural aspect of what it is to be Jewish.
33) Tis okay if I lost you on that one… most people find me a bit odd.
34) I like being viewed as wild, crazy, passionate, odd-that is how I plan on living my life.
35) Whenever we were going to go anywhere as kids, my mom would plan everything out. Planning doesn’t work HEATHIE so don’t bother.
36) Heathie is my best friend. We met in my 6th grade class. Went through middle and high school together which had its ups and downs. Such an influential person.
37) She now goes to school in E-town.
38) I’m sorry, but that town either smells like chocolate or POO
39) The smell of poo reminds me of the horses who used to shit near my fence at the old house in Hanover Township.
40) I grew up at this residence. A suburb child who rode bikes, took the school bus, had my circle of friends, went swimming= average life.
41) I always compared myself to other people-the talents, experiences, where they have traveled, and whatnot.
42) Just because I have only been to about half of the US states, Ontario, and the UN does not mean I wont get my chance to travel.
43) Even middle class people get to see new places and explore.
44) I want to be average-to know I’m working to provide for family and myself. Having too much money would cause too much greed and poverty makes little time for vacations, heh.
45) Average as in I get married, have a kid or two, buy a home, a car, go on family vacations, etc… something I WANT more than anything, but don’t usually admit due to fearing I wont ever get this.
46) My family is my mom and brother-they’re the best and we are still close, but I would like to add family members to that list J
47) WE all want love, passion, desire, and happiness in our lives. Why do some of us sell ourselves short and take a temporary relationship when we should have held our ground and waited for a more suitable person to come around?
48) Happiness is on the top of my list. To wake up, struggle through some boring and not so boring college classes, exercise, eat dinner, study, socialize, etc… and going to bed feeling like your day was wonderful just for being uncomplicated.
49) Not every day can be exciting. I always whined about being “bored” while watching some crappy TV show and scarfing piles of food down my throat. Boredom and habit bring about obesity-no doubt about it.
50) Even at 1055am (present time) I’d enjoy walking downstairs and eating a box of Girl Scout cookies. Not gonna happen this time. Will have a couple like 4, but the box will then close afterwards.
51) Losing weight is a huge priority now-for my health, to get off the medication that fucks with my hormones, and to feel better all around. Not as much for looking better. Maybe that’s why I never lost all of the desired weight-it was to look better for other people which is ridiculous.
52) Yesterday, Karin and I went to the Mary Kay class for my mom-she thinks putting crap on my face makes me look better apparently. The other girls agreed. Felt very out of place, but I’m trying the washes, acne treatment, concealer, foundation, lip gloss, mascara, and eyelash curling for my mom’s benefit.
53) My mom being this happy over me making some changes with myself is well worth it. Plus, I am admittingly curious about seeing my face not so red all of the time. Change sure is scary.
54) A little fear adds some joy and excitement
55) A group of us from manor north and, south, and north east last semester went on a haunted mill ride around Halloween. My RA held my hand and screamed at all of the stuff. Was sooo funy being the one to take charge and lead everyone through the maze.
56) I like being in charge/the leader/making an impact on other people
57) I’d make a good teacher as long as I realize I cannot change anyone-they have to want to change. I can however be a good influence, teach them some fun stuff about history and be there for them if they need to talk.
58) People call my cellphone at all hours to talk and I usually answer. It has become my tracking device.
59) I was 14 when I told Amanda S that cell phones were stupid since people could always find me and now look at what I sai for number 58. Oh, how things change yet stay the same. Hey-this was the number in my first sn- lilikiki59
60) I’m not sure which screename I like using anymore. Must keep in mind that not just one thing defines a person and for pete’s sake, stop taking everything so symbolically, LOL.
61) I’m more of a serious person. My mind constantly ponders everything, but I put on a happy face to the world even when I’m miserable. That’s something I DO like about myself.
62) There are plenty of other things I have discovered that I like about myself, but let me move on to something more interesting…
63) Movies are the best entertainment
64) The reflect every type of human emotion, make us feel like something has changed once we walk out of the theater.
65) The best films make you speechless. The Phantom of the Opera did this for me. Was speechless for 30 minutes-my mom was getting worried.
66) I first spoke at the age of 4. My parents thought I could possibly be deaf or mentally slow. Apparently, I just take my time and once I get a concept, it REALLY sticks.
67) I continued to be a slow learner, was placed in learning support during elementary school yet was excellent at math and still am one which has always made me believe I was smart enough.
68) I’m still excellent at common math, but I suck at algebra. Damn letters get in the way. Well I should try harder anyways. Heh. People at college other than 1 don’t think im good at math then, but I am decent in statistics, trig and everyday math mostly.
69) Relax, it should matter. Ohhh, on number 69.
70) I would make a comment about what I just said, but my brother can read this. Haha. Funny story though so let me know if ya wanna ever hear it.
71) Sensorship really bites because this list could be more interesting.
72) Always made me wonder why southern schools ban books like Huckleberry Finn.
73) Reading used to be a strong passion of mine. Books are friends on any given day.
74) I’ve lost my attention span on reading for pleasure.
75) I’m reading Crime and Punishment at the moment, but am only on chapter 3. I might push myself to keep on going and if it still sucks on chapter 6 then I’m stopping for good.
76) sometimes people just need a push in the right direction.
77) Like when I had to push my mom into letting my take French instead of Spanish.
78) in 10th I dropped out of French and wound up at vo-tech for horticulture like a slacking moron, but by 11th I was back in French.
79) my floral arrangements turned out to be pretty good. Shame the vo-tech was full of people I didn’t like and the school was a joke otherwise I would probably be going to a different college for a different major.
80) There is always time to change, but I’m gonna stay put at YCP.
81) plenty of time to learn new things.
82) I’ll learn more about Prince Edwards island in may since that is when my brother and I are driving up there. Woot, more states ive never been to and then another province. How fun.
83) May is also Nicole H’s birthday, krissy’s and katie’s- awww, my YCP gals. Hehe
84) I’m looking forward for warmer weather
85) I want to ride a swing in the sunshine
86) must call alyce sometime and go on a swing with her like old times. She was a friend of mine since the age of 4, but we more or less stopped being good friends in 10th. Shit happens.
87) Sophia was another friend I used to have. She and I grew our hair really long and she had hippie parents. She used to be cool until she went to the other middle school, slept around, stopped being her individual self, got addicted to E and probably cocaine ( not sure about the 2nd one) and stopped eating.
88) Shame how amazing people can turn into the worst of ppl
89) She had a double shower so we took a shower at the same time once.
90) weird how it didn’t mean anything then, but now im like “wow, I let someone else see me shower when I was 9 and 10, how strange!”
91) No I’m not a lesbian people although women like to ask me out.
92) I’m still not sure why that is. Maybe women like other women with more meat or their bones? Lol
93) We’ll all find someone during some time in our lives. Might get lucky and fall in love several times.
94) ive never felt “true” love, but I think I was in love for a couple weeks.
95) okay, don’t roll your eyes because I never said who I was talking about!
96) ya think ya know but you have no idea…
97) MTV used to actually be a cool tv station. I only watch fox and WB now.
98) holy shit, I forgot about the OC yesterday-noooooooooooooooooo
99) next week at college, ill get to see it. I leave for college on Sunday sometime.
100) Not wanting to go back so soon, but I’ll make the best of it. And this is where I wound up for number 100
Amanda S had to show me how to make all of that info a link. I'm going to write another one more interesting in the next week-probably wednesday night after sociology since my sociology paper is due that night and I must work on it during Monday and Tuesday. blah.
Amanda D is no longer coming to York this weekend. sorta annoys me considering it was her IDEA and SHE ASKED ME IF SHE COULD COME DOWN AND VISIT!!!! gah, I'm okay now. lol At least the canadians still are coming for the saint patty weekend. Dan's 2 friends might be coming during that time too so the more the merrier!
Hung out with Johnny, Steve, and Amanda D last night. saw the jacket. not worth $8.50. That's a ridiculous price for regal anyways... double gah.
my face looks so different or maybe it's just me...