a love, a fear, a confession, a regret, a story, a hope
anonymous
October 10 2005, 19:38:49 UTC
love: the family I was born into and the family I have come to know, including my friends fear: loss of the above, rejection, spiders confession: I am a pack rat. regret: losing touch with so many of my friends story:
"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines > he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" > because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A > and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door > and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy > took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born > with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a > Valentine signed with a row of X's > and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it."
hope: to never lose the best friend I have ever had
i can't make myself happy. no one else can either. i can't get the thought out of my head that no one likes me, i think everyone hates me. or maybe that's what i wish everyone thought. i know i'm going to be alone the ret of my life. all the problems i ever have i keep to myself, pretty soon i think i'm going to self destruct.
on i better note, i think you're pretty rad and i want us to hang out soon! girls night?! i sent you something about it, check myspace!
I'm afraid I'll never find somebody who loves really likes me that I feel the same way about. I regret a lot of things. I'm scared of new things and new people, and of growing up, being away from my family, and being more responsible. I feel like nothing I do ever measures up to the people around me, and everybody sees that. And that I annoy or attract dislike from everybody, no matter what they say. I know that the person (people) I like will never like me, no matter how hard I try to change it. And I've accepted it, which somehow makes it feel worse.
a love a fear a confession
anonymous
October 11 2005, 22:21:46 UTC
i love it when other people play with my hair. i fear not having money to support myself. I fear the future. I fear commitment. last year I was a complete mess. a fuck up. & now Im all back in order. perfected. Im scared that Im going to fall apart some time soon. but I dont dwell on this subject much, or it'll happen sooner than im thinking.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY I WANT TO LAUGH TILL MY INSIDES EXPLODE JUST LIKE OLD TIMES I WANT TO GO HOME AND FEEL LOVED I REGRET LETTING EVERYTHING FALL APART I MISS BEING ME IM SCARED OF LOSING HIM LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE
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fear: loss of the above, rejection, spiders
confession: I am a pack rat.
regret: losing touch with so many of my friends
story:
"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
> he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
> because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
> and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
> and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
> took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
> with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
> Valentine signed with a row of X's
> and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it."
hope: to never lose the best friend I have ever had
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on i better note, i think you're pretty rad and i want us to hang out soon! girls night?! i sent you something about it, check myspace!
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I regret a lot of things.
I'm scared of new things and new people, and of growing up, being away from my family, and being more responsible.
I feel like nothing I do ever measures up to the people around me, and everybody sees that. And that I annoy or attract dislike from everybody, no matter what they say.
I know that the person (people) I like will never like me, no matter how hard I try to change it. And I've accepted it, which somehow makes it feel worse.
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i fear not having money to support myself. I fear the future. I fear commitment.
last year I was a complete mess. a fuck up. & now Im all back in order. perfected. Im scared that Im going to fall apart some time soon. but I dont dwell on this subject much, or it'll happen sooner than im thinking.
I think youre cool.
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I WANT TO LAUGH TILL MY INSIDES EXPLODE
JUST LIKE OLD TIMES
I WANT TO GO HOME
AND FEEL LOVED
I REGRET LETTING EVERYTHING FALL APART
I MISS BEING ME
IM SCARED OF LOSING HIM
LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE
ITHINKYOURAWESOME.
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