Concrete prison

[sheisloved]

I was not made to spend 12 hours a day in a gigantic building that used to be an old hospital. At the moment I feel caged up. I feel as though I can not breath through these concrete walls. I infact can not even breath outside in the Los Angeles air. I just want to take a breath of fresh air. I want to be outside and in nature. I feel so far from

Comments

[carrythezero]

I think what you're talking about, the fakeness, is a lot of the reason organized religion sucks. And a big reason why so many people are turned off by it, and subsenquently (and very unfortunately) spirituality in general. So definitely, you shouldn't feel bad about pointing out those things. Its not gossip or crap talking, its something that you should be upset about and something you shouldn't be afraid to address

[sheisloved]

Thanks.
Today I was desperate to escape. I mean, I am so happy to be here..but then again I am not at all. Some days I just have to stop and think...what the heck am I doing here? I just want to run and be somewhere where people can just shut up and maybe just listen to each other.
Do you ever find yourself observing a conversation where neither of the people are listening to each other, and they each just bark out words to have them said. The speak only to hear themselves. That happens to me almost everyday.
Thanks for the encouragement...I know I can stand against these religious ministry robots.

Lovely Rita, Meter Maid

[for_real_]

Oasis will get you thru everything Katie. I love your entries always.. they are so honest.
<3 bryn

[etherealhammer]

This is much too sad. You should come to one of my martini parties when you get back. We listen to classic jazz, drink martinis and let our lungs bulge with the crisp air wafting from the antique corridors encircling my apartment (which I don't actually live in yet). Having lived in Seattle for a brief period of time in a room with walls which seemed to have come from the same blueprints as those used for a prison, I have discovered the importance of atmosphere. And hobos who bite the arms off missionaries are no match for a chandelier when atmosphere is the concern, and I have at least one.

[kaleidoscopenat]

Dude i feel ya Katie. You are doing a great job here, and I am really thankul that God has you in our office- even if everything does honestly SUCK at times... I know it can get insanely frustrating gal..I know that for me whats helped was having just 1 place where i go coud go BY MYSELF and just be real... just be me without the churchy arrogance or the fakeness i feel i've gained since coming here... for me that plac is santa monica... really try to find a place like that Katie. You need grass and trees i think... an fresh air and water. and dude, oasis....