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[shel07]

Summer's almost over with and everyone is going to start going their seperate ways. everything changes so much, i'm really going to miss everyone, but i know we will stay in touch, and i'm going to visit everyone as much as i can. I was really hoping that i was going to have a baby shower will all my friends before they left, but it's getting so

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[resumeurstride]

Shel, we havent talked really since we cheered together, your little girl will be a sweetie, i am very happy for you :) I am just around the corner and always willing to help out if you need anything. dont hesitate. Good Luck and you and Emily will find your way back soon...
-Jaci

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[blondie_mle]

Shelbie, you knew that I was going to be there for you for anything, forever. Especially at time like this in your life I was going to be there to support you, the last thing I wanted to happen was for us to fall apart. I told myself and you that I wasn't going to let that happen, yet it did. I feel like I've not only missed out on your HS graduation, and all the stages of your baby, but I have been left out of this important part of your life, which I believe is a decision you have made for yourself. Shel I tried my hardest. I called you for months, I left you messages, I even got so desperate that I mailed you a letter, yet I never heard back from you. The only time I ever heard from you was a couple random comments on LJ and this definitely isn't how I support my relationships, but sadly enough it was the only way I was successful in getting through to you. Then I talked to your mom and found out you moved...I didn't know how to reach you. I didn't know what more I could do and over time I realized I couldn't keep us together on my

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[blondie_mle]

Shel I don't understand why we fall apart like this, time and time again....

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[shel07]

i know i don't either. and i'm truly sorry. it does hurt me though when you say that now that all my friends are leaving, i realize i miss you..? you're leaving too, you're going to grand valley. i'm not reaching out to you now because my friends are leaving. that's not the case at all. it's just i finally got the courage up to talk to you. but i'm sorry if you feel that way. all i'm saying is i want a friendship with you. forget the past, there's nothing we can do to change it, only focus on the future. if you would like a friendship with me, then great, wonderful! but if you decide it wouldn't be best, then i would understand too.
-shel

[blondie_mle]

Shel this has been so hard for me and I'm not trying make things any more difficult for either of us. I don't understand why you need the courage to speak to me, we've known each other for years, you're like a sister. Is it something I have done that has made it hard for you to speak to me? I only took into assumption that maybe you realized you missed me due to your other friends leaving because I haven't gotten any answers from you, I'm left to try and figure things out for myself. Shel in all honesty I just don't understand, why? Why you never returned my calls? Why it's hard for you to talk to me? Why you didn't want me in your life?....? You mean enough to me to try and look beyond all this, and it's not that I don't want a friendship with you, I love you shel, I truly do, but It's difficult to forget about the past when the past keeps repeating itself. I feel like the only time we do have a friendship is when things are convienent for you, then for unknown reasons we fall apart and I'm left to wonder, then you find time again

[shel07]

i truly am sorry about everything but i do not think i can give you this explanation you want. i am sorry, i guess things are just hopeless for us. just remember that i am always here if you would like our friendship back. love shel