im starting to feel better about everything. but then im not. i feel better about my life as a whole, i decided to leave school for one of two jobs that i got, which is really exciting, because theyre insanely good jobs, working with insanely good photographers. so im pretty happy i dont have to keep up this whole thing of school. and im happy ( Read more... )

i unfortunately have a lot to get off my chest. this weekend was good, with only minor squabbles, i felt like it just wasnt long enough. but overall my self esteem factor was pretty good. until now, when i woke up and i get online and look at certain peoples stuff and i cant help but think about the fact that at one time he thought this girl was ( Read more... )

i wish i wasnt so fucking sad all the time.

((on the inside))

things are so beautiful and real and intense and wonderful right now.

im almost certain theres something wrong with me.
(my brain.)

its really funny when you read old posts and you think about how at any given moment someone means so much to you and after a span of time you realize they meant nothing in the grand scheme. its like youre blinded by someone who you think is like so amazing and then once you move on with your life, you dont even miss them ( Read more... )

i have a new tattoo.
and its sweet.
the end.

ps. comeback kid is still my jam.

im perfectly capable of being content with myself, with just myself. i realize that. and whether or not its believable i can do it.

ill just keep listening to frou frou and watching garden state. that should help, eh?!

iloveyouboyofmydreams;

love mrs.m

i feel like everything is eating me alive.
my feelings.
my work.
my classes.
my friends.
everything.
its just sucking away more of what i have left inside of me.
youre sucking the life from me too.
i continue to have dreams about you.
to think about you.
to want you.
ive never been more pathetic and googly. and lost as i am now.

remember the days ( Read more... )

just to lay with you, theres nothing that i wouldnt do.♥

im doubting moving now.
i hate to give up everything ive worked for in the last year.
thatd be ridiculous.
but knowing that maybe i dont want this as much as i thought.
staying would be ridiculous.

everything is ridiculous at this point in time.

way to be life. way to be.

fuck dude, it was 103 degrees all day today.
why is that even neccesary?
yeah, its not. exactly.