con*fess"\, v. i. 1. to make confession; to disclose sins or faults, or the state of the conscience ( Read more... )

im just not in a good mood. does anyone care? probably not.

im in a really bad mood lately. i wish i could say i was pms-ing but i just had my period two weeks ago... so ill cough it up as me ovulating.

i cant sit here and not feel my insides rotting. breathing. thinking. moving. it all brings me back to the fact that i permeate your soul with nothing.

secrets.lies.nothing.

im avoiding eye contact hoping whatever i have isnt passed along. ive ruined your life enough.

valentines day is here ((----sigh.----))

so my birthday is in 3 days. and it doesnt even feel like it. im not happy, or excited or wondering what im getting. im just nothing ( Read more... )

today i woke up and i realized i didnt want to feel prettier,

smarter,

nicer,

kinder,

sweeter,

or like a good girlfriend,

a great lover,

a wonderful daughter,

a spectacular sister.

i can feel  me
and thats all that matters

darling,
i love the fact that i can have frickin wrestlemania
wrestling matches with you, and even when you kick my butt you let me pretend i won.

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ok, yesterday i sat in bed, late at night and thought.. about things. how i feel about things. how i wish i felt. how i wanted to feel. how i wanted tihngs to be going. i guess none of them are going the way i want. its kinda weird. like i guess im happy, i think if my life dramatically changed i would be sad.... i guess i need to realize how lucky ( Read more... )