I have , for the last 6 months , put my life on hold for him. I exist only for him , and something was brought to my attention today ,that i plain and simply cannot handle even the thought of ( Read more... )

*sighs and tries to make sense out of her madness ( Read more... )

Today has been the worst day yet , with the fact that I spoke to him very little ... it scares me. Not sure I can take this ontop of everything else I deal with...and he said "no more will he take his parents above me" and he did jus that...stayed for a few moments...but still off to bed he went...without a second thought ( Read more... )

*dances in her seat , while putting on makeup ( Read more... )

Long Long time ago , I can still remember , how that music used to make me smile , and I knew if I had my chance , that I could make those ppl dance , and maybe theyd be happy for awhile. But February made me shiver , with every paper I delivered , bad news on the door step , I couldnt take one more step. I cant remember if I cried , when I read ( Read more... )

*Draws a long breathe and sits to define her actions the past few days ( Read more... )

Wow this is a bad day , yes it is, Fought with my brother instead of sleeping . but we knew that was coming. I am soooo alone...and scared...but I dare not wake him for fear of annoying him anymore then I already have. He tells me to rely on him..and I try to...try damned hard to let down my independant side and allow him to help /know me. It isnt ( Read more... )

Hurt , Relieved , Confused , Overstimulated , In Love , Reeling , Longing , Restless and Disassociative all at the same time. This scares me... today was the *WORST* day we've shared , misunderstanding , after hurtful words and actions. fuck I hate to feel like this. I dont know what to do minute to next . had hell trying to find my brother , but ( Read more... )