just when I was low and feeling short of stable

[shesgoingplaces]

I know why I'm not allowed to see Radek now. I've talked to my parents and they're thinking about what we should do, if anything. I don't know. I talked to Julian about it but I haven't really discussed it with anyone else and I'm not sure I wanted to discuss it with anyone at all, so we'll...see what happens. Radek said he'd write to me but he's

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[chasingash]

Do you think maybe I could come over sometime soon?

Also, meme me. :3

[shesgoingplaces]

I like this icon because you have clothes on in it:

[chasingash]

I don't like wearing shirts >:| They're itchy

I don't get to spend much time with you, but when I do it's always pleasant. I'm as fond of your cordiality as I am put off by it, but when we're alone you seem to set it aside far enough to have fun with me and I appreciate that. I won't bother with the physical because I'm sure you're well aware of how beautiful you are, but I will say this: your smile seems special. Maybe because I don't get to see it often enough.

How's Thursday?

[shesgoingplaces]

It's the middle of winter, Morison, wear some clothes.

Thank you--I'm taking those comments to heart.

Thursday's okay for me.

[grown_at_home]

:O Maybe write him back, just to get things off of your chest. It helps. Hence...journals.

Also, welcome, lass! If I was able to put a wee smirk on your face, then hurrah! Victory is mine!

[shesgoingplaces]

I really use my journal more to let other people know what's going on than to actually get things off my chest, I have to admit, but I see your point. That's really what I used to use letters to Radek for. Things have just changed so much in the last year.

:D Thanks Nik.

[pyretogenic]

Well, you know, here's the unpopular answer - give it time. Come on, his parents have almost lost him twice in what? Four months? They're panicking and trying to think of how to make things better. It sucks royally that they're doing this and all, but srsly, give them time to realize he's going to get better. I mean, there's really nothing you or your parents can do other than show concern and help as much as they'll let you.

[shesgoingplaces]

It was the doctor's decision, actually, and had nothing to do with how his parents feel.

Which is why my family is just trying to figure out how we can be there for his parents.

I'm not sure why you think this is an unpopular answer. It's exactly what I'm doing.

[pyretogenic]

Because I figure everyone else is plotting how to catapult you into his room or some shit like that.

And, you know, his doctor might know something we don't. I mean, this isn't the first time he's shown suicidal tendancies. If not seeing you means he would never do it again, I'd be all for it. Sorry but I would.

[shesgoingplaces]

So would I. Obviously I don't think it's the case, but if that would be what it took, then I would never speak to him as long as we both lived.

Was that all? Because I really don't want to have any long conversations about how I'm never seeing my best friend again.

[skaterchemboi]

Thinking about what you should do? How about nothing, because for some reason, someone who is in charge of his mental health says seeing you wouldn't be a good idea.

[shesgoingplaces]

I'm sorry, am I not allowed to care about my family friends? Just because I'm not allowed to see Radek doesn't mean I should abandon his parents when they might need my support.

[skaterchemboi]

Lizbet, the way you worded it makes it sound like you're planning on possibly having your parents, or his, force them to let you see him.

[shesgoingplaces]

I'm not. Are you done?

[saintwithascope]

I wish I had an answer for you. :/ I think what Nik said is a good idea. Just write it somewhere to get it out.

The rules of psych hospitals are like that a lot. Not being able to see friends. It's stupid to say 'try not to take it hard,' but...I dunno, sometimes no matter how much you love someone they can't get better when you're around. Not that I speak from experience or anything.

[shesgoingplaces]

You're both probably right. I'm not good at letting things out...I'll work on that.

I'm trying to understand that, I really am.

[saintwithascope]

I know you are, kiddo. I'm just gonna try to be here for you, okay? Because that's the only honest thing I can think of to do.

[shesgoingplaces]

Thanks, Liz--it really means a lot to me.