and we won't go down
This is going to be a cheesy one, and I do not care.
In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
I always liked Hanson. Liked. They were these little dorks who made pop music and were raised on oldies like I was. I respected them. I didn't obsess over them. And like 90% of girls my age, I forgot about them for a few years after Mmmbop.
I wasn't a super happy kid, really. I was unpopular, chubby and just generally awkward. I focused my interests on a boy band (not Hanson) and that only made me weirder because of how far I took the obsession. But middle school is tough for everyone, right? I'm no different from every kid ever in that. I'm not claiming my story is unique, just that it was tough.
By the time I turned thirteen, although I didn't really understand why, it was only getting worse. My dad lost his job and started drinking again. I didn't know that at the time, only that he and mom were always fighting and sometimes he would just... leave. The teasing at school got worse. There were rumors I was gay and times when only two people in my grade would even speak to me. If I sat down at a table, everyone else sitting there stood up and walked away. At night, I lay in bed crying and contemplating methods of suicide.
It's getting colder in this ditch where I lie
I'm feeling older and I'm wondering why
I heard they told her it was tell and live or die
I didn't know her but I know why she lied
I didn't know her but I know why she died
At one point in 1999, I'd dreamed of a new Hanson music video. It was strange, because I hadn't thought of them in so long, but it did make me wonder what they were doing. Not enough to actually look them up, though, so when they suddenly popped up on Making The Video, not long after my thirteenth birthday, I was surprised. Pleasantly surprised.
I watched that show, and I felt myself becoming a fan. Everything about them was just perfect, was just what I needed in my life. Taylor's adorable coffee addiction. His use of the word disingenuous. Zac's... Zacness. And then there was the song.
I've started feeling like I don't want to fight
Give in to the given and put out the light
Cannons a-blazing shower these moonlit skies
Then I remember and I know why he died
Do you know why I die?
For months I tried to deny that I had truly become a Hanson fan, but that song was my salvation. That song was my battle cry. The entire album eventually became my safe place, but that song will always be more to me than the rest of them. It didn't cure me of my depression, but it gave me hope. It told me I wasn't the only one. It told me that I didn't have to give in.
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around
And we won't go down
In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
I always liked Hanson. Liked. They were these little dorks who made pop music and were raised on oldies like I was. I respected them. I didn't obsess over them. And like 90% of girls my age, I forgot about them for a few years after Mmmbop.
I wasn't a super happy kid, really. I was unpopular, chubby and just generally awkward. I focused my interests on a boy band (not Hanson) and that only made me weirder because of how far I took the obsession. But middle school is tough for everyone, right? I'm no different from every kid ever in that. I'm not claiming my story is unique, just that it was tough.
By the time I turned thirteen, although I didn't really understand why, it was only getting worse. My dad lost his job and started drinking again. I didn't know that at the time, only that he and mom were always fighting and sometimes he would just... leave. The teasing at school got worse. There were rumors I was gay and times when only two people in my grade would even speak to me. If I sat down at a table, everyone else sitting there stood up and walked away. At night, I lay in bed crying and contemplating methods of suicide.
It's getting colder in this ditch where I lie
I'm feeling older and I'm wondering why
I heard they told her it was tell and live or die
I didn't know her but I know why she lied
I didn't know her but I know why she died
At one point in 1999, I'd dreamed of a new Hanson music video. It was strange, because I hadn't thought of them in so long, but it did make me wonder what they were doing. Not enough to actually look them up, though, so when they suddenly popped up on Making The Video, not long after my thirteenth birthday, I was surprised. Pleasantly surprised.
I watched that show, and I felt myself becoming a fan. Everything about them was just perfect, was just what I needed in my life. Taylor's adorable coffee addiction. His use of the word disingenuous. Zac's... Zacness. And then there was the song.
I've started feeling like I don't want to fight
Give in to the given and put out the light
Cannons a-blazing shower these moonlit skies
Then I remember and I know why he died
Do you know why I die?
For months I tried to deny that I had truly become a Hanson fan, but that song was my salvation. That song was my battle cry. The entire album eventually became my safe place, but that song will always be more to me than the rest of them. It didn't cure me of my depression, but it gave me hope. It told me I wasn't the only one. It told me that I didn't have to give in.
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around
You can't say I didn't give it
I won't wait another minute
We're on our way this time around
And we won't go down