Tas

[shi_illegitima]

Alright, I officially give up on this night. It finally hit me as I knew it would, so I have been bawling all night long and now I am exhausted and tired of myself.

I have ... the world's most beautiful creation sitting in the cage next to me since Sunday afternoon, and I would give anything for it to be not this intensely stunning Tas sitting

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[zuleika]

Stunning birds and you have nothing to feel bad about but I do have a warning for you!

Once Majors hit around 10 years old and their hormones change they become VERY agressive towards other birds even their mates. They have been known to rip the beak right off a mates face.

Only downside to the breed!

[shi_illegitima]

Don't worry, I'm aware of the aggression issues of Cockatoos and the MM in particular so I will definitely be very careful with them. He has shared the cage with two Citron-cresteds and an Umbrella since he had weaned, and as he's still a baby at +/- half a year, I don't see the harm of shared play-time, the more that I'm always there supervising and don't let them interact with each other. Thank you for the warning, though :)

How are you & your beebs doing ?

[zuleika]

It won't be an issue for a bit yet but yeah it's scary how they turn on their mates when no other too seems to.

Mine are good, loud and sooky as usual 0:)

[shi_illegitima]

I know. Him sitting here in my room is probably the next proof of yet another malfunction of my brain, heh. First, they are sinfully expensive over here (I'm a little ashamed, actually, that we've spent this much on a bird while we could make a whole bunch of kids without parents happy with a donation), and second, I've stepped over my unwritten principle of not doing Cockatoos because I always found the risk it will go wrong and the chance I'll make him an unhappy, perhaps mutilating nervous wreck too great. And there, you see it. He killed my brain with cute *rolleyes*. Pink, fluffy cute. How wrong, ROFLMAO; I'm all metal ! I hate pink. Give me TROO and RAW. I don't need a PINK bird :p

[dizzyweb]

*bigass hug*

Good luck.

[shi_illegitima]

Thank you, my dear. It will all fall into place eventually ... I just have to heal. How have you been doing ?

[will_ah_wisp]

Oh darlin - thi must be such a hard time for you. I know how it fels tolose a loved one...I know how it feels to hope that one day they'll show up again on your doorstep. I had a cat once who came to us before she was ready to be taken away from her mother - so I became her mom...she would follow me everywhere around the house and outside, would sleep curled up in the curve of my neck every night, would lie across my shoulders for hours as I walked around the house, would wait for me outside the bathroom..lol...one day she went outside and never came home again. I was heartbroken. I had kept one of her kittens, but it felt like I was replacing her and I was so torn between wanting to do right by this new kitten and wanting to honor the memory - and hold out hope - for my sweet little cat.

That said, your new Tas is beautiful. Simply gorgeous color. I hope that you two can find your way towards closeness.

[shi_illegitima]

Ah, my dear Shallom. Always trying to bring comfort to the others, not knowing how to comfort herself. But you have no idea. I have let him go. He didn't 'just' ... not come back one day. I did it, and my pain is not pure, because it is stained with guilt. I know the pain wasn't less when your sweetie got lost, but you knew you gave her the best life she could have and that you were a good mother to her. I let Wru down, who depended on me (because he won't survive out there in the wild, while a cat could), who trusted me with his life to protect him. And now he is gone, perhaps dead, and mine is the guilt that can never go away. He was 1.5 year old, and these animals can live well up to 50. I was living towards getting old together with my babies.

And so it goes. But Tas IS beautiful; he is gorgeous and he is too gentle and sweet. I found him because I hope he will help me heal after the initial hit, and I need to grieve and heal, or it would break me.

Thanks for the update, I'm off to you :)

[meilliyon_]

Hey you, haven't talked to you in a while. I knw how much you miss Wru, you were so proud of your baby. A big hug Jay, I think you need it.

<3

[shi_illegitima]

Jantje !!! Ik heb je SMSjes gehad, maar nog geen tijd om er terug op te komen; twee studies, tentamens, de kindjes, nog een kindje (want ik ben bezet sinds mijn vakantie, let op, in Ierland 8) in augustus) ... ik was net bezig om weg te gaan naar een tentamen van psychologie toen ik je SMSje had ontvangen dat je naar Ierland verhuist. Ik ben ZO jaloers, niet met woorden te beschrijven ! Ik ben zo verliefd op de land geworden ...

Vertel ! Hoe ben je erbij gekomen; wen waar ga je daar wonen ? Voor hoe lang ? En hoe gaat het met jou ?

Ik hoop van harte dat je je gaat vermaken en alleen maar gelukkig word daar, en hou ons op de hoogte, ok ?

♥

[meilliyon_]

Jitje! Binnenkort maar weer eens een keertje uitgebreid bellen, ben in december weer terug in Nederland dus dan kan het weer goedkoop. Als je langs wil komen in Dublin, laat het me even weten want ik heb wel een bed voor je hier

[keepthelightout]

i've missed you, sweetie. i agree with will ah wisp - i hope someday the pain goes away, bit by bit. and even more than that i hope your sweet baby arrives back in your arms.

[shi_illegitima]

Thank you (((hugs))). I've missed you too. How are you ?