Today was a shit day
Today was physically and mentally exhausting, depressing.
... soul destroying. Caleb seemed to never stop crying, poo-ing or feeding and Luke is back at work so it was all me all day and night (so Luke could rest up before work).
Seriously questioning today why or why did we have a child. What am i fucking doing and why is said child such high maintenance.... is he ever going to sleep for more than 4 hours at a stretch???
I’m so over this and so angry at my childless self for making me think that having a child was a FOMO type thing.
Luke has now (escaped) has gone to Kung Fu class in Brunswick .... beats me why he’d choose to do that with all this COVID19 stuff happening but I guess it’ll be good for him to do some exercise, meet new people and do something that’s not work, looking after child or domestic duties. He’s not gone out once with his mates! They’ve kind of been ignoring him ...
Only two redeeming things are
1. Lukes dad brought us toilet paper ..... in these crazy apocalyptic times that’s just about the most thoughtful, precious, present anyone has ever got us.
2. He’s pretty adorable. Eczema and all. I just wanna eat him up.
