Are You Mine?
This was inspired by the AZIO ENTERTAINMENT interview of SJM with Patty Hou. It was so much Kyuhan love that I just had to write this :D
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ARE YOU MINE?
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Are you my Hangeng?
The words are written before Kyuhyun can stop his fingers and the pen that is sliding along the paper and then she's reading them out loud. Kyuhyun sees Hankyung with his eyes downcast and the soft word thrown out; no. No, not his, not Kyuhyun’s, not ever his .
/why?/
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What are we, hyung?
It’s five weeks after Kyuhyun joins Super Junior and the two of them sit in Hankyung’s room, Kyuhyun playing on the computer and Hankyung flipping through his Korean dictionary beside him. There’s the sound of pages being flipped and the muted noises as Kyuhyun defeated opponent after opponent. There’s the sound of a book being shut in frustration and a game being paused; Kyuhyun pulls Hankyung onto the bed and they lie there staring at each other, saying nothing, speaking through silence. “What are we, hyung?” the question slips from Kyuhyun’s lips hours later, as he stares at Hankyung’s sleeping face pillowed in the crook of his elbow.
/I don’t want to just be your dongsaeng/
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Let’s be together.
Everyone is laughing and crying and hugging each other and there are shouts of congratulations all around. Kyuhyun hugs Sungmin and is hugged by Leeteuk and then Hankyung grabs his hand in excitement and the happiness shining at him in those warm eyes makes him so giddy he feels faint. The trophy is passed along and there are arms around him now and Kyuhyun whispers “Let’s be together,” into the curve of Hankyung’s neck. The dancer is jumped on and pulled away by a crying Eunhyuk and a hyper Donghae and the words are lost in the sound of euphoria back stage.
/from now to forever/
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Never leave me.
Kyuhyun hurt inside and out, the pain clawing along his skin and digging into his muscles and spiking along his broken bones. He’s broken and barely there, and all he can think about is whether the beeping will stop and Hankyung, Hankyung, Hankyung. Hankyung holds his hand and whisper in his ear of all things they’ll do together when Kyuhyun is better and Kyuhyun shoves a piece of paper at him with the words, “Never leave me.” The words are received this time and Hankyung doesn’t leave his bedside for a week and a half, and Kyuhyun wants to scream what he really means, but he can’t speak, his voice is gone and he can’t bring himself to want to, not when Hankyung has a limp in his leg in the mornings and there are pink lines on that face from the crinkled bedsheets of Kyuhyun’s hospital bed.
/because no amount of bandages can fix me then/
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Let’s disappear where no one can find us.
Hankyung is kneeling on the bathroom floor, over the toilet bowl and all Kyuhyun can do is rub soft circles on the other’s back, trying to smooth out the shuddering and wretching. There’s the sound of muffled sobs amid the gagging and Kyuhyun clenches his fists in the towels lying on the ground to stop himself from punching the mirror hanging on the tiled walls. The noises stop and Kyuhyun wraps his arms tightly around the shaking body, the skin burning hot and the shirt soaked with cold sweat. He nuzzles his face into damp hair, “Let’s disappear where no one can find us,” and he gets no answer because Hankyung’s head falls against his shoulders and all Kyuhyun can remembering is running, sprinting to the hospital, the other frightfully light in his arms.
/where I won’t have to watch you hurt/
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Be mine, only mine.
He watches Shiwon drape himself all over their leader and the way Ryeowook is clinging onto Hankyung’s arm. Kyuhyun doesn’t speak to Hankyung after the recording and he sits near the window at the back in the van. He stays silent when Hankyung comes into his room and he only puts his headphones on as the other touch his shoulder. Kyuhyun wants to hide Hankyung and make him his own, but he knows that this is how Hankyung is, that he loves everybody and Kyuhyun can’t make him stop, because then he wouldn’t be Hankyung anymore, and that is who Kyuhyun loves. So it is only after Hankyung slips out the door- there’s tears swirling in those eyes- that Kyuhyun whispers, “Be mine, only mine” to the empty hotel room.
/I can make you happier than anyone else can/
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Are you my Hangeng?
Hankyung pulls him into an empty dressing room 72 seconds after the cameras have stopped rolling. It takes just over 75 seconds, for Hankyung to shove him up against the door and cup his face and kiss him, long and hard and mouth parted. It leaves him breathless and he is gasping when they finally part and it’s just past 326 seconds. Hankyung wraps both arms around him and pushes himself closer, closer than ever before and kisses Kyuhyun again and again and again, soft murmurs of yes, your’s, yes, not everybody’s, yes, yes, your’s, panted into his mouth as Hankyung shows Kyuhyun exactly who he belongs to.
They emerge a little over 3712 seconds later, hands grasped tightly, lips swollen and skin flushed and Kyuhyun knows perfectly well the answer to his question.
/mine/
<3
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ARE YOU MINE?
~
Are you my Hangeng?
The words are written before Kyuhyun can stop his fingers and the pen that is sliding along the paper and then she's reading them out loud. Kyuhyun sees Hankyung with his eyes downcast and the soft word thrown out; no. No, not his, not Kyuhyun’s, not ever his .
/why?/
~
What are we, hyung?
It’s five weeks after Kyuhyun joins Super Junior and the two of them sit in Hankyung’s room, Kyuhyun playing on the computer and Hankyung flipping through his Korean dictionary beside him. There’s the sound of pages being flipped and the muted noises as Kyuhyun defeated opponent after opponent. There’s the sound of a book being shut in frustration and a game being paused; Kyuhyun pulls Hankyung onto the bed and they lie there staring at each other, saying nothing, speaking through silence. “What are we, hyung?” the question slips from Kyuhyun’s lips hours later, as he stares at Hankyung’s sleeping face pillowed in the crook of his elbow.
/I don’t want to just be your dongsaeng/
~
Let’s be together.
Everyone is laughing and crying and hugging each other and there are shouts of congratulations all around. Kyuhyun hugs Sungmin and is hugged by Leeteuk and then Hankyung grabs his hand in excitement and the happiness shining at him in those warm eyes makes him so giddy he feels faint. The trophy is passed along and there are arms around him now and Kyuhyun whispers “Let’s be together,” into the curve of Hankyung’s neck. The dancer is jumped on and pulled away by a crying Eunhyuk and a hyper Donghae and the words are lost in the sound of euphoria back stage.
/from now to forever/
~
Never leave me.
Kyuhyun hurt inside and out, the pain clawing along his skin and digging into his muscles and spiking along his broken bones. He’s broken and barely there, and all he can think about is whether the beeping will stop and Hankyung, Hankyung, Hankyung. Hankyung holds his hand and whisper in his ear of all things they’ll do together when Kyuhyun is better and Kyuhyun shoves a piece of paper at him with the words, “Never leave me.” The words are received this time and Hankyung doesn’t leave his bedside for a week and a half, and Kyuhyun wants to scream what he really means, but he can’t speak, his voice is gone and he can’t bring himself to want to, not when Hankyung has a limp in his leg in the mornings and there are pink lines on that face from the crinkled bedsheets of Kyuhyun’s hospital bed.
/because no amount of bandages can fix me then/
~
Let’s disappear where no one can find us.
Hankyung is kneeling on the bathroom floor, over the toilet bowl and all Kyuhyun can do is rub soft circles on the other’s back, trying to smooth out the shuddering and wretching. There’s the sound of muffled sobs amid the gagging and Kyuhyun clenches his fists in the towels lying on the ground to stop himself from punching the mirror hanging on the tiled walls. The noises stop and Kyuhyun wraps his arms tightly around the shaking body, the skin burning hot and the shirt soaked with cold sweat. He nuzzles his face into damp hair, “Let’s disappear where no one can find us,” and he gets no answer because Hankyung’s head falls against his shoulders and all Kyuhyun can remembering is running, sprinting to the hospital, the other frightfully light in his arms.
/where I won’t have to watch you hurt/
~
Be mine, only mine.
He watches Shiwon drape himself all over their leader and the way Ryeowook is clinging onto Hankyung’s arm. Kyuhyun doesn’t speak to Hankyung after the recording and he sits near the window at the back in the van. He stays silent when Hankyung comes into his room and he only puts his headphones on as the other touch his shoulder. Kyuhyun wants to hide Hankyung and make him his own, but he knows that this is how Hankyung is, that he loves everybody and Kyuhyun can’t make him stop, because then he wouldn’t be Hankyung anymore, and that is who Kyuhyun loves. So it is only after Hankyung slips out the door- there’s tears swirling in those eyes- that Kyuhyun whispers, “Be mine, only mine” to the empty hotel room.
/I can make you happier than anyone else can/
~
Are you my Hangeng?
Hankyung pulls him into an empty dressing room 72 seconds after the cameras have stopped rolling. It takes just over 75 seconds, for Hankyung to shove him up against the door and cup his face and kiss him, long and hard and mouth parted. It leaves him breathless and he is gasping when they finally part and it’s just past 326 seconds. Hankyung wraps both arms around him and pushes himself closer, closer than ever before and kisses Kyuhyun again and again and again, soft murmurs of yes, your’s, yes, not everybody’s, yes, yes, your’s, panted into his mouth as Hankyung shows Kyuhyun exactly who he belongs to.
They emerge a little over 3712 seconds later, hands grasped tightly, lips swollen and skin flushed and Kyuhyun knows perfectly well the answer to his question.
/mine/
<3