[SNSD] (old) Cracks
cracks
seohyun/tiffany; pg; ~330w
when it comes to their youngest, tiffany ignores what she already knows
Seohyun scares Tiffany. It’s scary how fragile she is, like porcelain, and how easy it would be for her to break. Because Seohyun is still a child and Tiffany can’t help it that she coddles her, strokes her hair in a motherly sort of way, makes sure she eats all her vegetables, that sort of stuff.
Because what kind of unni would she be if she didn’t?
But even with her baby face and baby voice, Seohyun can still be scary. She’s scary when she tells Tiffany to stop, yelling but not really, eyes flashing with a kind of anger that makes Tiffany want to crawl under a rock and die.
Honestly unni, I am not a child!
Tiffany wants to cry and pull her for a hug because, you are Seohyunnie, you don’t know any better, but Seohyun stomps off and Tiffany is left with empty arms.
She’s growing up. Taeyeon’s attempts to be comforting and leader-like fall on stubborn ears and Tiffany doesn’t want to listen anymore. It won’t do any good to baby her.
But she needs this, Tiffany wants to argue but her tongue is swollen and something is screaming at her, to listen to Taeyeon, to back off, but she numbs her mind, these voices are annoying. Taeyeon’s, her own. She doesn't want this.
And she runs.
Runs because she doesn’t want to deal with Taeyeon’s disapproval or Seohyun’s watery eyes, Seohyun crawling into her bed at night and whispering apologies to her silent back, and oh why does her heart hurt so much?
When she finally returns and takes Seohyun in her arms, the feeling is so bittersweet; she can barely feel the other girl.
Stop it stupid. That voice is back, that annoying voice and it’s telling her things she should know, but she doesn’t want it, she’ll never want it. Tiffany locks herself up and she never notices how Taeyeon’s disapproval turns into a desperate sadness or how Seohyun’s watery eyes become dry again, but they’re blank, empty, longing for Tiffany.
She never notices.
seohyun/tiffany; pg; ~330w
when it comes to their youngest, tiffany ignores what she already knows
Seohyun scares Tiffany. It’s scary how fragile she is, like porcelain, and how easy it would be for her to break. Because Seohyun is still a child and Tiffany can’t help it that she coddles her, strokes her hair in a motherly sort of way, makes sure she eats all her vegetables, that sort of stuff.
Because what kind of unni would she be if she didn’t?
But even with her baby face and baby voice, Seohyun can still be scary. She’s scary when she tells Tiffany to stop, yelling but not really, eyes flashing with a kind of anger that makes Tiffany want to crawl under a rock and die.
Honestly unni, I am not a child!
Tiffany wants to cry and pull her for a hug because, you are Seohyunnie, you don’t know any better, but Seohyun stomps off and Tiffany is left with empty arms.
She’s growing up. Taeyeon’s attempts to be comforting and leader-like fall on stubborn ears and Tiffany doesn’t want to listen anymore. It won’t do any good to baby her.
But she needs this, Tiffany wants to argue but her tongue is swollen and something is screaming at her, to listen to Taeyeon, to back off, but she numbs her mind, these voices are annoying. Taeyeon’s, her own. She doesn't want this.
And she runs.
Runs because she doesn’t want to deal with Taeyeon’s disapproval or Seohyun’s watery eyes, Seohyun crawling into her bed at night and whispering apologies to her silent back, and oh why does her heart hurt so much?
When she finally returns and takes Seohyun in her arms, the feeling is so bittersweet; she can barely feel the other girl.
Stop it stupid. That voice is back, that annoying voice and it’s telling her things she should know, but she doesn’t want it, she’ll never want it. Tiffany locks herself up and she never notices how Taeyeon’s disapproval turns into a desperate sadness or how Seohyun’s watery eyes become dry again, but they’re blank, empty, longing for Tiffany.
She never notices.