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Fuck it, why did I even wake up.
Fucking headache.
It wasn't even good waking up to the memory of my stupidity.
What the hell am I winning Shougi games for...?
God, my back hurts. I know I always complain it does, but it really does this time.
And a whole lot, too.
We were supposed to be home by tonight. But here I am, lying like a hopeless idiot with bandages around my torso. Why? Because the water knocked me out.
No kidding.
I suppose I should have been a little bit smarter by making the team stay one more night. But I thought Ino and Chouji had enough of the sickening weather. Besides, it wasn't as if any of us hadn't spent one night out in the rain before. But no, the lightning and thunder had to come. And I had to make us stop to take shelter under trees.
Then the dam had to overflow, and Ino and I had to be washed away. Into some stupid cave which crumbled and sealed us in.
On the bright side, we were out of the rain.
Bad side being we lost Chouji and were likely to be stuck in there unless someone found us. Which might have taken several decades, really. Provided the stupid ceiling didn't cave in on us first.
It was a lose-lose situation, no matter how I looked at it.
And Ino just had to be our bright little ray of sunshine by getting all optimistic on me: "We are either going to drown, freeze, starve, or be buried under rock."
Godammit, I knew that. I didn't need her to ascertain that for me.
If it weren't raining so hard Chouji wouldn't have had much of a problem finding us. But there was no telling whether he was swept off into some other century-old cave or not... and that worried me.
So I told her to shut up. I mean... I really can't be polite when I'm thinking sometimes.
Then an eternity passed, and I cancelled out my 100th probable escape plan. Which would, like all the previous 99, lead to us being crushed by falling debris, engulfed by cruel floods, suffocated due to lack of air. Well done, Nara Shikamaru.
Then the weirdest thing ever: "Why do you hate me so much?"
It's not that I did... it's.... I don't know.
Tenten would probably laugh and say something like the smartass she is, but I really don't care.
So I just said I didn't hate her. Just said I felt she had too much to work on and some crap like that. "Shut up because the ceiling will come down if you don't keep that mouth closed."
I supposed that was the worst way to anger Ino ever (should have seen that coming; I'm always saying things that make her mad)... but she retaliated with the... most shocking words I never thought she'd say to me.
I hate you.
Yea, I've heard that many times. But the tone in which she said it was so different. So different. Somehow.
I wish I never had anything to do with you.
Stake through the heart - that's the best I can describe it.
We've been together for 15 years, and I've put up with a lot of bull from Ino. But this was a first.
Still, the next was the worst...
I would have been better off without you.
For once, she left me speechless. I wasn't angry - I couldn't get angry.
Perhaps she was right. But that also meant that all those times I saved her from giant rocks and flying kunai and twisted blind dates... all those times I listened to her cry about her heartbreaks and helped her get back on her feet when Sakura ditched her for Sasuke...
Did they all amount to nothing?
Pretty much now, I supposed.
No more words.
So I turned my back to her. An angry woman is a very troublesome woman. As if she wasn't troublesome enough to begin with.
Then the pinnacle of my stupidity:
The ceiling came down. I could have easily pulled her away, but didn't.
My body moved on its own; I made a lunge. Pushed her down, covered her, embraced her head.
The pain was unbelievable. Just... terrible. Nothing like a kunai. Didn't even come close to hearing Ma nag non-stop. The blow took the breath from me, but in that instant all I could think about was how relieved I was Ino didn't get hurt - the pain would have killed her.
Then Chouji came down and I just let him pick me up...
It was so bad I wanted to die.
Then they treated my wounds, but my eyes were having so much difficulty even staying a slit open I can't remember who did it. I was lying face-down, anyway. And the pillow was so warm and soft... I just slept. Out like a light.
So here I am.
Chouji's not here, but Ino is. I suppose she sent him to get food - he's good at that, anyway. Knowing what kind of food recuperating people should stay away from and all that weird shit...
She's sleeping.
In the chair, but leaned over and using her arms as a pillow near my own.
Somehow it sucks that she's frowning so much even in her sleep. Yes, even though she completely shot me down earlier.
I'll... carry her in a while. Let her have the bed or something. Seriously, she looks sick. Like puke-sick.
Will need to talk to Tenten when we get back.
But in the meantime...
Think I'll go sleep on the couch and wait for Chouji.