Last First Place… [Chapter 2/4]
Last First Place… [Chapter 2]
White walls, black bed, crystal chandelier, antique oaked parquet flooring and a working desk are what make up Jinki’s bed room. Brought out the elegance in simplicity, nice collocation of colours, I guess this guy’s taste isn’t that bad.
“I’m going to take a bath you ju…ju…just…make yourself at home or something.” Jinki stuttered. Jinki STUTTERED! Jinki might be clumsy and everything but as far as the history goes, he never stutters.
Kibum just gave a nod to acknowledge Jinki before Jinki heads to the bathroom. Kibum ransacked his suitcase for PJs and the only PJs he found was one that was draped loosely barely covering his shoulders. Kibum internally cursed Jonghyun before mentally making a note to skin him alive tomorrow first thing in the morning. [A/N:FYI, Jonghyun put it in thinking Kibum would need it for their 1st night *ahem*] That is provided if he could survive in the room until morning.
Kibum was about to change into his when he heard a loud crash in the bathroom. Shocked, Kibum knocked on the door.
“Is everything alright in there?”
“Neh…nghh...I slipped and banged on my shoulder. Nothing much…”
“You stay still I’m coming in…”
Kibum push opened the door and walked in cautiously. When he spots Jinki in the bathroom, he rushed to him.
“OMG! Seriously how clumsy can you get? It’s a bathroom and you slip on soap…real smart.” [A/N: SAY YES TO ONEW SANGTAE!!]
Though Kibum’s tone is filled with sarcasm, which sort of piss Jinki off, his eyes was filled with worry and concern as he quietly check Jinki for any sign of bleeding. [A/N: WAIT! Isn’t Jinki naked…?? I thought he was bathing] When Kibum was sure that Jinki was alright, awkwardness filled the air instantly when Kibum was sitting on Jinki’s lap while Jinki was…well, naked… [A/N: SEE! I told you he was naked!]
“*ahem* since your alright I should go outside right? I probably should” Kibum mumbled to himself before standing up and leaving the room with a flustered and badly blushed face. [A/N: it’s so cute!] And Jinki can’t help but think that Kibum’s flustered face is awfully cute.
After both of them were done cleaning up, a shriek could be heard when Jinki pinned Kibum down on the bed and eyed him with eyes filled with nothing but lust. Actually Jinki just purely wanted to creep Kibum out but seriously, the PJs Kibum was wearing was not helping in his self-control. Kibum’s neck was fully exposed and the milky white skin [A/N: Reminds me of Heechul] that seem to be alluring Jinki to just kiss it.
Before Jinki knew what was happening, he had lost his self control and started taking off Kibum’s clothes one by one. Kibum struggled but Jinki had a firm grip. [A/N: JINKI! Don’t you dare!]Right when Jinki was on Kibum’s last piece of clothing, his hand, cupped on Kibum’s face, feels wet. When he looked up, Kibum and his eyes met, Kibum’s eye was weak as a bead of crystal slowly trickled down.
Kibum felt as though he was being raped, Jinki’s eyes were doing the job. Jinki’s hand sends electric waves throughout the whole of Kibum’s body; every touch makes Kibum feel uneasy. Overwhelmed by fear, never have Kibum been so afraid, afraid of what, Kibum don’t know all he knows is he doesn’t like the way he is being treated, extremely.
“Why are you even crying? Isn’t this one of the reasons why you even bothered to agree to this marriage?” Jinki said in indifference. [A/N: JINKI! How can u say that!]
“Jinki, you know what, fuck you, from the time you set eye on me you think that I a whore didn’t you? A whore sent here for your money and to have sex with you. Well, sorry to disappoint, I’m not what you think...I am…’
Kibum choked on his last word, Jinki loosen his grip on Kibum allowing Kibum to free one of his hands before he knew it, a sharp pain seeped through Jinki’s cheeks. While Jinki was recovering from the shrieking pain, Kibum took the chance to push Jinki off him and got to the door.
“I…I’ll be sleeping in the l…living room.” Tears welled up in Kibum’s eyes when he ran out of the bedroom door… Jinki internally bashed himself into a pulp for making Kibum cry.
It was 3.30am in the morning; Kibum is starting to regret running out of the warm bedroom because the living room in Jinki’s house is FREEZING! And the cold weather outside is definitely not helping Kibum feel any warmer along with what he is currently wearing, Kibum is curled up and practically trembling. Tears have dried up from all the sobbing and now, Kibum is just too cold to do anything if this continues, and he is bound to catch a cold tomorrow morning. [A/N: T.T why did I do this to Kibum??]
Jinki got out of bed to get water, but the truth is that when Kibum is not around him, he feels that he can’t think straight. When he was at the living room, he sees a person, at least he thinks is a person, all curled up and trembling. He moves up a little and his assumption was right, it’s Kibum. Kibum noticed the shuffling of feet and looked up only stare into Jinki’s warm brown orbs and as if on cue, he feels a tint of blush on his face.
Jinki grabs Kibum by the hand and pulled him into his arms, trying to warm Kibum up with his body heat even if it’s just a little, as long as Kibum feels warm, Jinki doesn’t mind feeling Kibum’s coldness. Kibum’s eyes widened at the action and he could feel his entire face burning, his body is replaced by a sudden gush of embarrassment. Jinki’s hug is warm and secure, his broad shoulders gives the support Kibum is looking for and the crotch of his neck seem to fit Kibum’s head perfectly like a piece of puzzle. The hug lasted for not more than a minute when Jinki realize how embarrassing their position is.
“Before you catch a cold and I actually have to carry you to the hospital, go the room and sleep. I’ll sleep on the floor and just now…I’m…uhm…sorry about it…I didn’t get my mind…straight.” Jinki stammered. It seems that as long as Jinki is around Kibum, he either stammers or just trip over air. Kibum just have that charm to make Jinki fall head over heels for him but Jinki will never ever admit it.
Kibum’s eyes widened so big you’ll feel that the eyeball is going to pop out anytime. “You know how to apologize!” Kibum said obvious pure sarcasm and shock linger over the words.
Jinki just gave Kibum an eye roll before heading back to his room.
It’s been nearly half a year since Kibum has started living in Jinki’s house. Recently, they’ve moved to a small apartment not far from Kibum’s house. Kibum heard from a few servant noonas that Jinki debated with his parents because he knows Kibum feels very constrained in the house. It wasn’t that bad, Jonghyun and Taemin visit often though there wasn’t really enough place for Kibum’s clothes I mean have you seen his wardrobe, it took up 1 entire room… And living in a smaller apartment meant that Jinki and Kibum was practically alone every second of their life. They’ve gotten used to it…at least they are now friends… Kibum thinks…
It was around mid-afternoon when Kibum has that bad feeling something is going to happen and when the phone rang, he found his mind debating whether to pick up the phone and hands trembling…
“H…Hello?” Kibum wavered.
“Ki…bum…Kibummie…Grand..ma…Grandma…sh…she…she pa…passed…a…way…” Kibum’s mother was sobbing extremely hard through another side of the phone. [A/N: R.I.P Kibum’s Grandmother T.T]
It took Kibum a second to register what his mother had said…he was holding onto the phone so tight; his knuckles are turning white, he’s hoping that everything was just a lie, an April fool’s joke or something. His tears threaten to fall but he held them back so hard everything turned fuzzy in front of him.
“Kibum,” it was his father, ever so calm voice, “her funeral is 2 days from now please do come to Daegu along with Jinki?” His father’s voice sounded more like pleading then a question.
“K…O…Okay…” Kibum used his last strength to answer before the phone just slip off his hand and tears of regret and sadness filled the entire room with a dolefully atmosphere. Kibum entirely forgot about his cold as he just let his emotions take control of him. Kibum stared at the empty room…Kibum just want his Grandma back even though he knows it’s impossible. Kibum just want his Grandma beside him coaxing him to drink up his medicine even though he knows he would never hear his Grandma again. Kibum doesn’t know where he is and what he is doing all he knows is that he needs someone with him now. WHERE IS JINKI WHEN I NEED HIM THE MOST?! WHERE THE FUCK IS HE? Jinki…I need you…now… [A/N: Now you need him…]
Jinki was struggling through his last question on the Chemistry paper when he felt a sudden stab of pain through his chest. He shock off that feeling and finished up the paper even though it was still there, lingering…
After school, Jinki slid open his phone and saw 23 miss calls all from Kibum.
The door flung open and Jinki saw pictures scattered all over the floor and a lifeless looking Kibum staring into nothing. His eyes were red and awfully puffy tears were still streaming down like an uncontrolled tap only it seem as though Kibum has gotten used to the tears and just decided to let them fall as they wish.
Jinki walked up to Kibum carefully trying not to step or trip over any of the pictures as he approach Kibum, he could see Kibum slowly curling up with his hands hugging his legs, he was trembling as though afraid of Jinki. Jinki pulled Kibum into a hug even though Kibum protested at first, he slowly embraced himself into Jinki’s hug sobbing uncontrollably and Jinki just tightens his hug. Kibum was sure he couldn’t breathe but he didn’t care all he care was that now Jinki was with him, even for just a minute, Kibum feels that everything would be alright.
The next day at night…
“Can you come to Daegu with me tomorrow?” Kibum asked Jinki the night before he was leaving.
“Please...”Kibum uttered.
Kibum hugged Jinki from the back, begging Jinki to go with him but Jinki pushed Kibum away, leaving Kibum in alone in the echoic living room. All alone, Kibum try to make the tears stop but they wouldn’t because deep down he knows nobody cares. Jinki gave him an illusion that he actually cares about him but an illusion doesn’t last long…not matter how much Kibum hopes it’ll last…
From behind the wall, Jinki’s tear falls he doesn’t like seeing Kibum that way he doesn’t want to push him away but he never knew he would fall for Kibum…this hard… so he push him away thinking Kibum can actually find someone better than him. [A/N: *smacks myself for separating them*]
3 days later…
Kibum came back to Seoul with Jonghyun, Kibum was back to normal at least he was joking around with Jonghyun and that’s a sign he was back to normal right? ... [A/N:When Kibum resumed all the variety shows, he was still wearing that smile it looks so genuine as though nothing has happened but everyone knows he is sad…it’s just SM doesn’t allow him to show it…]
Kibum and Jonghyun has been friends since like FOREVER their relationship is such that Jonghyun always says something stupid and Kibum bitches at him but they know they can’t survive without each other. They use to go out but when 2 people are friends that are so close, being together is just weird even for the both of them, so they came to a conclusion to stay how they are now besides, according to Kibum, Jonghyun is having a major crush on Taemin but Taemin our pure innocent little devil is just to oblivious to realize it.
Jonghyun often visit Kibum knowing that Kibum is practically suffering in Jinki’s house and know how much he misses his parents. Whenever Jonghyun drops by, [A/N: Jonghyun is just trying to get permission to Kibum’s ‘son’] Jinki would always be observing at the side and when they get a little to touchy, according to Jinki, ruffling of hair is counted as touchy…, Jinki feels a sudden urge to go up and grab Kibum by the hand and sweep him off his feet or something like that (provided he doesn’t falls…)
But then, Kibum seems so much happier with Jonghyun than with him maybe, Kibum likes being with Jonghyun more than he does with him. Maybe, letting Kibum leave was the thing he should have done from the start. Kibum would be happier wouldn’t he? Even though deep down Jinki want to hold onto Kibum but he knows that their marriage ends in a year which means, all relation dies in another 6 months…
A/N: I’m happy Jinki got to act in a musical and everything but seriously a kiss scene?! Has he even given his first kiss yet??!! He is too pure and innocent! How can SM taint him like that?? T.T anyway…this fic is like a complete fail? I AM SO SORRY!!! I mean I have the idea there but I just can’t seem to form out the freaking sentence T.T Sorry for the delay as well hope you guys didn’t forget me :P SCHOOLWORK IS SUFFOCATING! But ‘Art’ has been quite a relaxing class at least drawing makes me feel chillax (: maybe I’ll draw something after I finish this fic? Back to the point, chpt 3 most likely will be up around?? Next week?? I hope… my mind is like flooded with the fact there’s a kiss scene in the musical… they’ll be kissing from april - june nearly every day! OMG! I am like so Onew bias… :P