Lie
Kibum and Jinki are tangled in the bed sheets, on Jinki’s bed. They’re kissing, touching, loving. Kibum looks up into Jinki’s eyes and they’re filled with love. Love for whom? Kibum cannot help but wonder. Jinki’s kisses are gentle, loving, and Kibum almost believes that the older boy loves him. Almost. Because after a while, the kisses turn rough, filled with want. Jinki’s tongue abuses Kibum’s mouth. Jinki makes to remove Kibum’s shirt, but Kibum stops him. No, not today, Kibum cries, clenching his eyes shut. Jinki’s touch softens, and he kisses Kibum’s closed eyes. Kibum’s defense falls just a little.
I love you, Jinki whispers.
Kibum knows it’s a lie, but it doesn’t stop his heart from hurting when Jinki kisses Taemin the next day.