Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living

[shiningbrite]

I've been avoiding this thing for a while now, figure its about time to spill:
Lately-
My mood changes every 20 minutes. I feel alone but I want to push everyone away. I cry randomly; at home, work, wherever...
I smoke every night which has probably been bothering me the most. I used to  occasionally smoke- at a party or something. Now, literally

Comments

[helionaught]

sorry to hear of your luck. hope things go better in the future.

[shiningbrite]

I wish I could believe that this was a sincere comment, but because you ignore me any other time, my judgement tells me this was a sarcastic remark. Thanks for taking the time to comment though

[helionaught]

it is sincere, i hope things get better for you.

[shiningbrite]

Thank you. I guess I'm just confused because your behavior towards me and your comments on here are pretty contradicting. Maybe I'm just looking for answers I will never find.