I love you Nikki <3 :]

Give me a lake that I can dive into
Bury my head in the shit at the bottom
Fuck today
Fuck San Francisco
Fuck California
I realize I never gave you a chance
I realize I never gave you romance
At the top of the hill
At the top of the hill
Leave me to stream in the current or breeze

Give me a lake that I can dive into
Bury my head in the shit at the bottom
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It makes you think about the life you've led,
The shit you’ve done, the things you've said,
And its grounding, grounding.

I hope you're much happier and in a better place,
you will be missed.

Every day seems the same to me ( Read more... )

Baby
Black, black, black is all you see
Don't you want to be free?
Baby
Red, red fire is what you breathe
Don't you want to be clean?
Honey, the shape you're in
Is worth every dime you spent
Baby Doll
Turn out the lights
Set yourself on fire
Say goodnight
Did you have a real cool time?
Baby
Black, black, black is all you see
Don't you want to be ( Read more... )

I don't know why I still do it.
It always makes me feel 10000x worse than before I did it, and yet, I can't stop.
I feel inferior and worthless, and my mind can't stop spinning.

Hold your breath, little lungs
The tide is holding us beneath
I am the sky and you are the sea
You are the one who colors me

2 a.m., I lie down deep in slumber.
Feelings are falling downward.
Waking up, I hear the way your voice sounds.
My heart starts to pound, now...
To the rhythm of yours.
You're so angelic. Your words so symphonic.
Touch your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away.
How am I so lucky, I found you?

Sometimes, I feel like I'm still dreaming.
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"they can give me pills
or let me drink my fill
my heart wants to explode
far away where nobody knows"

Finally decided to get help with my drastic mood swing issue, now it's just a matter of waiting I suppose. I really hope something changes. I've never been one to advocate using prescription medicine to help with certain issues but its getting to the point where I seriously can't stand it anymore. It's like being in a really awful dream, watching ( Read more... )