someone please help me and give me some advice
I have a lot to get off of my back right now….i have had a crappy week so if I say anything in here that offends anyone…im sorry…im just venting…
Well last night I went upstate to go to the show with Amanda….the show was awesome…but the night could have been better…I saw a lot of ppl there and hung out with Lydia who is really cool…and saw fear before the march of flames which was amazing…the only thing that wasn’t really fun was after the show…driving all over gods creation with ppl I didn’t know at all…and going to harry’s (house)…harry and everyone there seemed mad cool but I felt really left out….everyone was drunk…I just sat there wondering what I got myself into….and was worried to death..i almost wanted to cry (haha I know that sounds babyish)…Amanda kept asking if I was ok…I said I was….i wasn’t….it was really uncomfortable…I was comfortable where we crashed cuz it was with Amanda and Lydia and two other ppl that seemed really cool too….dont get me wrong…I did have fun.
And tonight….i got an instant message from someone that really upset me…im not mentioning names cuz I don’t want them to get even more upset with me…I just want to let that person know (and you should know who you are) that I would never do anything to hurt them….and that its cool if that’s how they feel..but we really should have a talk…because it really hurts me to hear that just because of some drama that IM NOT EVEN INVOLVED WITH…..that they shouldn’t be upset with me and what I do….its like a tug of war….and I am avoiding any of this…because I don’t want anything to do with the drama…I just want to be friends and have a good time…like we did at the beginning of the summer.
Another subject that is really bothering me is my little sister…I feel like she is my daughter anymore….i watch her non stop..and that may not sound like a big deal…but it really is….my dad doesn’t even watch her when im around…he just expects me to take care of her while he sits on his ass or sleeps…its not cool at all..and I want to say something..but I cant ….cuz I would be wrong no matter what…and I hate that
Lori is drunk tonight…she went to the blondie concert..and called me wanting me to come pick her up in dewey when she had a ride….she didn’t stop calling me….and now she just walked in…and is slurring and what not….i cant stand dealing with drunk ppl….ahhhhhh….wow…I sound so freakin emo right now…but yeah..i sorta wrote something cuz I was upset earlier…don’t laugh too hard yet…its not done
This summer was autumn.
The leaves so colorful and full of life.
Then, all of a sudden, fallen away,
Leaving nothing but barren trees,
And the demise of everlasting anything….
Well that’s all for now
Well last night I went upstate to go to the show with Amanda….the show was awesome…but the night could have been better…I saw a lot of ppl there and hung out with Lydia who is really cool…and saw fear before the march of flames which was amazing…the only thing that wasn’t really fun was after the show…driving all over gods creation with ppl I didn’t know at all…and going to harry’s (house)…harry and everyone there seemed mad cool but I felt really left out….everyone was drunk…I just sat there wondering what I got myself into….and was worried to death..i almost wanted to cry (haha I know that sounds babyish)…Amanda kept asking if I was ok…I said I was….i wasn’t….it was really uncomfortable…I was comfortable where we crashed cuz it was with Amanda and Lydia and two other ppl that seemed really cool too….dont get me wrong…I did have fun.
And tonight….i got an instant message from someone that really upset me…im not mentioning names cuz I don’t want them to get even more upset with me…I just want to let that person know (and you should know who you are) that I would never do anything to hurt them….and that its cool if that’s how they feel..but we really should have a talk…because it really hurts me to hear that just because of some drama that IM NOT EVEN INVOLVED WITH…..that they shouldn’t be upset with me and what I do….its like a tug of war….and I am avoiding any of this…because I don’t want anything to do with the drama…I just want to be friends and have a good time…like we did at the beginning of the summer.
Another subject that is really bothering me is my little sister…I feel like she is my daughter anymore….i watch her non stop..and that may not sound like a big deal…but it really is….my dad doesn’t even watch her when im around…he just expects me to take care of her while he sits on his ass or sleeps…its not cool at all..and I want to say something..but I cant ….cuz I would be wrong no matter what…and I hate that
Lori is drunk tonight…she went to the blondie concert..and called me wanting me to come pick her up in dewey when she had a ride….she didn’t stop calling me….and now she just walked in…and is slurring and what not….i cant stand dealing with drunk ppl….ahhhhhh….wow…I sound so freakin emo right now…but yeah..i sorta wrote something cuz I was upset earlier…don’t laugh too hard yet…its not done
This summer was autumn.
The leaves so colorful and full of life.
Then, all of a sudden, fallen away,
Leaving nothing but barren trees,
And the demise of everlasting anything….
Well that’s all for now