I decided today that I want to move to philadelphia.
I can't afford NYC, and philly is pretty sweet, and not very far from NY.

I'd live right in the city, apartment would be paid for with my tuition.

class starts august 21st. i am really considering this.

I'm at work.. i get off in 49 minutes, then i have a doctors appointment in fort lauderdale.

life's been kinda boring.
the year's half way over and i havent done anything.
ive worked and i have no money.
i havent made a decision about school.
and i wasted the last 7 months in a relationship that was never going anywhere.

i wanna move.

I think I'm gonna visit linda soon ( Read more... )

I decided to go out with my parents on friday night, they took me to this place called "Mangos Bar & Lounge" in downtown fort lauderdale ( Read more... )

the aaron I knew ( Read more... )

One thing I learned this week ( Read more... )

The beer i had for breakfast was a bottle of mad dog ( Read more... )

I've been feeling better lately..
a LOT better...

I cant wait to get my life back on track

everytime i try to end my life
i pussy out

i need balls.

i gotta say "the guest" is a pretty amazing album
the end.

I have suicidal thoughts quite often.
its the scarriest thing i've ever dealt with...

I dont want to die, I love my life,
I dont know why this keeps happening...
these thoughts play out in my head so clearly.
very detailed and graphic. almost as if i planned it out.

i hope this is normal, and i hope they go away.
i hope im not crazy.