I can understand being afraid you won't be sad. When my grandmother passed away...I didn't cry until her funeral, some months later. It was just so unreal until.
I'm very sorry for your loss. My grandfather died when I was twelve, over six years ago now, so I know where you're coming from. I still remember the last time I saw him: lying in a hospital bed, as jovial and happy as he'd ever been, promising us that he'd be home soon. I don't think I was old enough for it to really hit me, since I got over it in a matter of days. Best wishes, again.
I lost my grandfather six, almost seven, years ago. I cried when my mom said it wasn't looking good; he had complications from a triple-bypass. For years he had been functioning with less than half of his heart properly functioning. Even though I was only about eleven, that night was the only time that I cried for losing the man who baptized me and taught me so much. I didn't at the visitation or funeral. I knew that it just wasn't him anymore. He was some place better. I remember my mom saying what her siblings had done on the last night with him in the hospital. They sang hymns. And then on the little marker 'to-do' board in the room, where nothing was written, my aunt walked over and wrote "See Jesus."
It's never easy. If you break down, you break down. If you don't, you don't. Think of all he meant to you and the great and wonderful times you've had. Carry those things with you. I am truly sorry for your loss and I wish that I could give you the biggest hug for as long as you need one.
I'm so very sorry, shizuma. I... I don't really know what to say, other than I hope everything is okay.
I know how you feel. When my grandpa passed away a few years ago, I'd barely known him due to a family feud that left that bond in shambles; but my mom still cried... a lot. To this day, I haven't shed a tear... and I know, deep down, it's not because I'm heartless, but... I think everyone handles loss differently....
*hug*
Also, you wrote such a lovely piece there, dear. It speaks volumes.
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I can understand being afraid you won't be sad. When my grandmother passed away...I didn't cry until her funeral, some months later. It was just so unreal until.
It is a beautiful tribute.
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It seems as though he's been sick for a long time, and when death is expected then the crying might not start for a while.
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It's never easy. If you break down, you break down. If you don't, you don't. Think of all he meant to you and the great and wonderful times you've had. Carry those things with you. I am truly sorry for your loss and I wish that I could give you the biggest hug for as long as you need one.
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I know how you feel. When my grandpa passed away a few years ago, I'd barely known him due to a family feud that left that bond in shambles; but my mom still cried... a lot. To this day, I haven't shed a tear... and I know, deep down, it's not because I'm heartless, but... I think everyone handles loss differently....
*hug*
Also, you wrote such a lovely piece there, dear. It speaks volumes.
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