Jaii: JESUS! ALL YOUR CROUTONS ARE BELONG TO JAII ( Read more... )

i dont want him when hes there.

but i miss him when hes not.

and then when i have him, i push him away again.

and miss him even more.

now i undertand what "you want what you cant have" means.

*sigh*

i am sick again. it is awful. i was just starting to feel fully healthy!! grrr

oh well i got to miss CAPT. and i got to sleep till twelve and make myself cake. :]

but then again, i had to deal with throbbing headaches.

hmmm.

hehe i want to do this too ( Read more... )

i give up.

i was wrong i guess its not going to work out the way i wanted it to after all.

i wish it would, but you seem to be blind to it all.

i thought youd get it eventually but it doesnt seem to be happening. whatever maybe someday you will. and you know where i am.

from the way that you acted
to the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my ( Read more... )

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Close Yet Far

who said that I wasn't right?
I've lived for years without a life
don't have a soul on my side
still ridiculed despite how hard that I have tried
don't take me under your wing
I don't need a hand, don't need anything
I've got a roof over my head
as if I'd rather be alone with me instead

close yet far
drop me a line and tell me how the hell ( Read more... )

ahh my legs dont work anymore ( Read more... )

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just back from track practice. pain. im so out of shape. pain. and as i predicted, i started coughing up a lung while jogging and me and mary just walked. pain.

the only thing keeping me from quitting is mary saying that this is 'hell week' and i should just stick it out.

what did i get myself into?